family is not everything
family is everyone
if all soccer players practice honesty
there would be no need for a referee or linesman...
if we teach our youth to depend on a referee or a linesman
as to abandon their own sense of honesty
then we allow our youth a scapegoat
we shouldn't suddenly stop using referees,
but when did we start needing them?
and can honesty replace them?
the burden of a potential loss placed on our youth is great.
too much emphasis is placed on winning
and too little on honesty
our youth must be taught to play to learn
because then they can never lose
then the burden of honesty is lifted
and a loss can be reframed as a learning
and a joy can even be felt for the winning team
this sense of oneness
must be restored in our youth
happiness is not a pinnacle
it is only a slice
of a much bigger pie
and an even larger picture
what you're looking for
is looking for you too
but know this...
those who seek happiness
should abandon their search
they should instead seek truth
for the journey toward truth
is filled with an ending bathed in light
a happiness born out of a feeling of oneness
where a lightness overcomes your physical being
and you at once are endowed with the ability
to raise your physical body from the ground at will
you are only a reflection of your perspective
rejecting, assimilating or remaining indifferent....
these are the only tools at your disposal
if we abandon our perspectives
as to move toward perspectivelessness
the happiness we once sought with perspective
will wither into nothingness without it
one day there was milk...
then another day came
when milk just wasn't enough
my brothers then came together
and decided to give the people choice
and so, fat free and full cream milk was born
then still another day came
and one of the children asked
"papa do we have fat free and full cream cows"
and papa replied
"no my angel, we only have cows...
it is the money-man who sells you the choice"
while watching someone else's life
her own life stood still...
and after drying her tears
she returned to her perspective
state of the nations
when a mind can be used to amplify an idea
their mentality must first be rendered susceptible
only then can the idea shine through them
and they in turn are then used
as vehicles of love or fear
it can take a lifetime sometimes
to realise why it is that you're here
we are the keepers of the flame
from where mind can be lit
while singing still your own heart
ancient thoughts ago... the followers of the great sretsis fought the ethereal war against the reapers of the same, led by the vile rehtorb... the start of the never end was marked by the coming of the seven sisters. revealing themselves only as thought, together they reflected the face of one love. silatnem could change not only the shape of things, but the minds of men, tiralop, itarbiv, tyhr, itasuac, opserroc & endeg, each gifted... but the cosmic cleansing had separated the sisters of one love, and so to entwine their intentions with timelessness, the siblings merged themselves into every soulful atom across the somethingverse... a dance had begun, one that will last for all human heartbeats, seeking to reunite the sisters & reignite the memory of the legendary eson, son of jam
air to the throne
during the great gathering on mars in 2718, the fate of earth was decided in a game of rock paper scissors. the interplanetary delegates assembled had been in talks for days prior to the final clinch fisted blow
eson, son of jam, was at the time the most respected interplanetary explorer and the long standing ambassador of earth to the furthest galaxies. to humans he was the invisible ether that bound entire systems together by his very name. such was the power of eson, son of jam. when the final fist had fallen, eson stood victorious, but not relishing in his victory, he took to his knee, bowed his head and said "to none... but all... forever"
these words marked the end of a love story in the solar season. earth was evacuated under a new intergalactic treaty and declared an h-free system. for the next 10 000 years, no human being would inhabit the earth, all other lifeforms would be left to flourish by the will of time and any manner of structure or system would remain as they lay. religion's final tombstone, laid to rest
the story never ends
many flying species survived the great cleansing, many early humans too, one such family was shuuk and suddah's, coastal foragers sleeping high in the mountains. there were very little flying flesh eaters in their lands for long periods of moons, and there was enough food every where, everyday, all the time
the mountain's cliff is what created and sustained their little microclimate, shielding them from the noxious gases spread across the planet... the shape of the shoreline, the heights of the flanking mountains, the spume of the surf and all the energies of the mountain came together to provide a sort of safe zone for him and his extended family, neighbours and some visitors. the south of the planet holds many secrets, one of them an entrance to a core cave system, an eden discovered by accident one day while diving for giant shell grabbers, zappos as they were named
wuuko, suddah's second cousin went down into the water, past the last barrier of rocks, the shell grabber spots him and does a speedy dive, wuuko follows him down quickly, he kicks hard and points straight, but there was really no where for the zappo to swim, and as if it had pushed through the sand, it just kept going down and down... with very little breath left he courageously follows the zappo further down... he kicks, pushes harder, starts using his hands, almost within reach, and then, as if entering a rock shaped chimney that seems to be lit from above, he follows the zappo up... he glides all the way to the top, and there it was... incredible... the entrance to an underground network of caves that stretches in different directions for what seems like forever, fresh water, green flora and a light as bright as day
wuuko swims cautiously toward the cave's shore and looks around, and up and down, it seemed impossible what he was seeing, a cave garden complete with fresh water and food ready to move in to. he couldn't understand how the light was coming in, how it was so lit, so luminous... he decides to return to shuuk and bring back some others to see and experience this amazing find... on their return, their faces reflected their thoughts... the fearless aakhtee starts a sprint down one of the cave's tunnel openings until he disappeared into the distance, eventually stopping he loudly shouts "kah poo lee lee... kah poo leeeeeeee..." and they all start laughing, almost quietly, as if to themselves...
I'm not afraid to die &
not because I'm fearless
but because I understand
that when I do come back
I might not remember who I was
but I will recognise who you are
by how you live...and that is how
I will know who I am
"let me show you what love can do"
and he started walking...
she knew where he was headed
but only he knew that he wanted to get there
all she could do was watch in amazement
as he marched fearlessly into the silence
the flip side
my cousin linney was born into
what most would consider middle class
he started wholesaling mandrax in the late eighties
and supplied a huge portion of cape town
most don't enter lightly into such lives...
at 27 a turf war earned him 2 shots in the back of the head
the two gunmen took nothing from the house
it was strictly karmic business
so I told her
"I can move the pen with my mind
and so can you, you just forgot
or lost belief, or both"
she smiles and says
"if you pay me 1000 monies
I'll show you, isn't that what showmen do..."
she smiles and says
"what if I pay you, will you really show me?"
and I said
"if you're willing to pay me to test the limits of your own belief
why not do it for free?"
an inconvenient truth
healing is seeing the meaning in the feeling
and the bulk of that, is letting go
lets suppose that you were able every night
to dream any dream you wanted to dream
and you would naturally as you began
on this adventure of dreams
you would fulfill all your wishes
you would have every kind of pleasure
you can conceive of
and after several nights you would say
"well that was pretty great"
but now lets have a surprise
lets have a dream which isn't under control
where something is going to happen to me
that I don't know what it's gonna be
then you would get more and more adventurous
and you would make further and further out gambles
as to what you would dream
and finally you would dream
where you are now
many nights when my other half falls asleep
I'll carry on working into the early hours
when she wakes up during the night
she will always come to find me
and ask me to come and lay with her
until she falls asleep again, and so I do
and when she starts softly snoring again
I get up and return to my desk...
I love doing that for her
season 1 episode 1
feeling is the truest form of knowing
you can't ignore what you're feeling
but you can certainly try
and most people do
for their entire life
if choice is a rudder
then what is "the will of god"
if god is in control
then what is suicide?
thinking in tenses
are one of the many culprits
that take you away from the now
I have this hunch
that if jesus and muhammad had twitter
and each of them had say 1 billion followers
I suspect that the two of them
would follow each other
because they’re cool like that
and would it not make sense
to do then as the prophet does?
leaders see the good in all beliefs
while followers see only the good in their own
word without when
there are thoughts
that haven’t been thunk for eons
and then suddenly
you are reminded of something
that you haven’t thought about
in 10 000 years
& it all makes sense again
a true leader strikes love into the fear of men's hearts
so that they might inspire themselves into the light direction
the why of the how
and then beng asked
how do I get better at focusing
and feng answered
the answer to that question
lives in the answer to a different question
and feng continued
the essence of your focus
is rooted in the answer to the question
"what do I choose my focus to be"
the answer to that question
becomes the root of your focus
how you gonna make
the dream is this huge piece of marble stone
you are given a chisel & some time
to carve whatever human experience
you choose to chisel out for your self
its almost as if
you need to fetch your dreams
we all want our me to feel free
but most don't enjoy the admin
that inevitably comes
with their dreams
we put a man on the moon
but we didn't put a man
inside his daughter
we take responsibility
as a collective for
but for others
we acknowledge no part
and in other news....
README twelve years spent in a schooling system that leaves you worth no more than R10 p/h & you evens get a certificate to prove it... it helps if you read this story with something to write with, it helps to draw as you read along, try it, you have nothing to lose, but aweh...
show me the story
lets for the purpose of discussion
take one dollar & one thought
the dollar as commodity, has a limit
the thought as commodity, is limitless
but most value the dollar more than the thought
thought is the fundamental building block of life
it shapes our physical reality
whether you understand it
or believe it, or not
a thought lives forever
you cannot kill a thought
all my thoughts
and all your thoughts
live in the space
called the collective
the collective is just another name
for the moerse bakkie
where all our thoughts live
its essentially the place
where god accesses all our thoughts
we all feed the collective
and all feed off of it
if I have a kak gedagte
I am essentially poisoning the water hole
that we all feed from
as you are reading these words
as the words are imprinted onto your mind
there are thoughts streaming to you
life and direct, 24/7/365
you cannot shut it down
its a by product of being alive
even now as you are reading
those thoughts are still streaming to you
you make peace with this stream
or you get carried away with it
the average high school girl
uses up to 60 percent
of her thought capacity
to judge the next girl and herself
she's sitting at home, in her room
zoning on the other girls hair, her nails, her bag
the girl she's zoning on
is not even in the room with her...
this is the very essence of giving krag weg
allowing one's thoughts to run rampant
out of control
if she valued her thoughts
like she valued her dollars
she's not going to be zoning on that girl
for an hour, a day, a whole fucking lifetime
are you jas?
look at what she's doing
more than 50% of her thoughts
for a 24 hour period
was occupied on thoughts of judgement
heavy days bra...
she could have been thinking
my mom is happy
my brother is safe
my life is good
green grass, blue skies, HOPA!
but she can't control her thoughts
so she gets on that bus
only to arrive an hour later
at the same place she found herself before
to take stock of this young lady's thoughts
we need to demonstrate how we concluded the 50%+
we claim she had been using exclusively on
of the self mainly, through comparison to the other
there are these little metrics
imagine an upside down "T"
the vertical axis represents
the state of being
the horizontal axis represents
the state of becoming
each of these metrics
of which there are many
represent the anchor points
for the polarities
in other words
a single upside down "T"
represents the opposites
so, for example
love and hate is one thing
love is on the left of the horizontal axis
and hate represents the right of the horizontal axis
love and hate is one thing
on the same line
they bleed into each other
like hot and cold
you are either becoming hate
or becoming love
based on the mental, physical and spiritual stuff
that are effecting you everyday
everything on the left is positive
or a high vibrational frequency
everything on the right is negative
or a low vibrational frequency
everything on the left is essentially
everything on the right is essentially
did you ever go to a place
maybe someone's home
and maybe think to yourself while being there
"I don't feel like being here,
it doesn't feel right here"
that feeling, is you experiencing
the thoughts of those person(s)
through the vibration they are emmitting
my thought, sustains my vibration
when you are sitting at home
feeling mad or sad
the chances are 100%
that what you are thinking about
is what is making you feel that way
there's no other nommer...
the trees don't know how to lie
when a forest grows
its like a giant truth made of love
that's why it feels lekker to walk through the forest
at the center
of becoming either love or hate
is the state of being, oneness
its essentially one love
I prefer to call it one love
I feel it conceited
for me to think
that I know the name of god
to illustrate, take romeo and juliet
romeo and juliet are sitting under a tree
romeo is trying to explain to juliet
who and what shakespeare is
but how can romeo possibly conceive of
who are what shakespeare is
if he himself
was conceived in the mind of shakespeare
its an old analogy, to convey the conceit
in me trying to explain to you
who and what god is
for the purposes of discussion
let us say that there are two types of love
the one type of love, is the opposite of hate
like, I'm in love, I'm out of love
the other love
lies at the center of becoming either love and hate
on the axis of being
this love is essentially one love
undifferentiated, unconditional love
one love does not look less favourbly
on the cheetah
who killed the young buck
to feed her cubs...
are you happy for the cheetah?
or sad for the buck?
"one love", is indifferent to such things
nothing is personal, everything is energy
there is nothing happening to you
its just happening
some people go through an entire lifetime
without concluding this
even as a possibility
if you can see the upside down "T" still in your mind
with love and courage etc on the left
and hate and fear etc on the right
the H-axis as the state of becoming
the V-axis as the state of being
with that in mind
introduce now a new dimension of time
separated by hour
as a third dimension
to denote when I was feeling how
so, for example
6am, 7am, 8am, 9am etc etc
with this new dimension of time added
we'll be able to plot and track
and clearly see for how long
I've been either hovering on the love side
or on the hate side...for a 24 hour period
so, using myself as an example
I will plot myself
on the metric of love and hate
to illustrate how I am moved from pole to pole
during the day, as and when things affect me
so, at 6am I get up
i'm usually in a happy state
so I plot myself a little on the love side
just slightly to the left of the axis of being
at 7am I put on some lekker beats
raising my vibration
causing me to plot myself even further left
at 8am, my mom calls me and tells me to come and fetch some fresh koesiesters
I obviously go and fetch a moerse bakkie of koesiesters
plotting myself now all the way to the left on the love side
at 9am, my brother calls, and tells me that he's just written off the car
now, this will send most into a state
but I pause and say to him
don't worry about the fliping car
are you okay?
doing this keeps me relatively centered
preventing me from sliding over to a state of hate
and I plot myself just a little to the left
of the vertical-axis, still on the love side
the average high school girl cannot control her thoughts
she is sold to the highest distraction
allowing her vibration to shift from love to hate,
she is moved back and forth and back again
almost without her consent
she cannot focus her thought
she has not yet mastered
the discipline of focus
when I lay in bed at night
and take stock of my thoughts
if I am sincere with myself
I will know for how long
I've been camping out on the love side
and if I'm sincere with myself
I will know for how long
I've been camping out on the hate side
controlling your thoughts is kak hard, its poes hard
its the equivalent of trying to work a six pack
but for your mind
everyone wants the six pack
but nobody wants to do the crunches
focus is your weapon of choice
on this mental battlefield
if we take lionel messi as an example
his focus is next level
we admire his skill
but if during a high stakes game
he lets a thought
of an argument past
come into his mind
even for a second
he can get thrown off his A game
if you are totally focused on what you are doing
if you are so engrossed with the act
with which you are engaged in
then, that bad thought, can't come in
focus is your weapon of choice
focus trains the will of your attention
to allow anyone, to achive any goal
some humans are powerful
they use their own thought energy
& rope in some of yours while they're at it
to move their own realities forward
powerful stuff right there
try to see through
the eye of your mind
not perpetuating how it is
but how you wish to see it be
and make this possible
you think and do
I write for my culture
& to remind myself too
that a rose can bloom
from a crack in some concrete
the love is always
right where you are
not all stories have a lesson
& not all lessons can be told as stories
some kak you must just feel
what if everyone
one day when I grow up
I want to be like me
the drama queen
appearing anywhere and at any time
using anyone as her vehicle
the drama, whatever it may be
is forever seeking to draw you closer
your susceptibility is her fuel
your distraction is her victory
eye of the tryer
we live in a world
where anything is possible
even you getting over it
nothing is personal, everything is energy
few go through life considering this even as a possibility
we want it to be personal, we need it to be,
because only then, will our illusion be rendered true
there is nothing happening to you
its just happening
I spoke to your prophet
I spoke to your god
"what did you ask?" said emma
I asked "... what could I ask all the humans?"
she looked puzzled...
"what do you mean, what do you want to ask the humans?
"why don't you ask me?" she said
so I said "do you believe in god?"
and she says "yes..." with a confident nod
and I continue "do you love this god you believe in?"
and she says "of course I do!" with a confident head tilt
and then I said "are you ready to die right now, and return home to your god?"
and she paused, for quite a while...
because even though she says she believes
and even though she says she loves this god she believes in
she still needs to do some other very pressing "thing"
before she can meet this god, she claims to love...
when your beliefs & your actions don't reconcile
then you mos talking kak..
thought, as well as spirit
are viewed by some, as commodity...
if you don't use your mind &
if you don't feed your soul,
someone else will
xenophobia, water crisis & such kak
are just barometers to ascertain the general sense of mind...
the susceptibility of your thoughts to be lead or
the sense to think for & lead your self
alleverything I am
is the love of my parents
everything I become
is the love I instill in my self
replace love, with any word
& that becomes your world
her father first penetrated her when she was just a few years old
imagine experiencing orgasm with your father on a regular basis
imagine her brother and her father going at her at the same time
now imagine, she regularly sleeping with her mother’s boyfriend
to get back at her mother for not defending her...
her father cautiously pimped her out when she was only a child
she fell pregnant from him eventually, at a very young age
the baby was aborted and she was sewn up permanently
without given the choice of being able to bear her own
and then... they continue to subject her body to further onslaught
this is besides the many men and woman she’d slept with voluntarily
she takes to the streets
she sleeps anywhere and with anyone
and everywhere she goes
everybody is clipping off their little piece of advantage
she smokes drugs to calm the thoughts
her body is accustomed to gang-bangs, up to six at a time
all this happened before she turned 14
and she’s suppose to make it through school and life despite all of this
the details of her actual experiences as a child, will keep you up for nights
her father killed her
he killed her when he decided it was okay to use his daughter for sex
he killed her spirit
he carved a permanent hole in her soul...
and because of all of this
she has developed a skewed affinity toward abuse
she roams the streets now, totally having lost faith in the concept of family
she goes where she gets what she needs, some company, her vices
and her unhealthy appetite for sex, engineered by her father
and perpetuated by our society, her brother and all the men in her life
her father walks the streets a free man
he, is one of thousands, millions, littering our communities with degenerate mentality
how confusing is it for a young girl
to experience the feeling of orgasmic ecstasy
with your father, again, and again, and again
the worst part, is that when you see her walking in the street
you see only with your eyes
and you forget to feel the story
behind the scenes, of every human
the art of letting go
if you teach your sons to forgive
you teach the path of a man
but if you teach your sons
to forgo the need for forgiveness
you teach the path of a human
my deepest regret
is that I didn’t let go
when I should have,
so that I could move onto
the things I needed to
don't let the mind
allow the body
to take the soul
for a poes
I asked God via email
so, you're on a stage with a microphone
and standing in front of you
are all the billions of humans of the planet
you have their full attention
you need to leave them with some thoughts, anything...
what would you tell them?
and he replied saying
I've got you...
closer and closer
to where I want to be, to where I want to go
to where I was before, before I use to know
that all perspectives flow like tides from high to low
or so it goes...
closer and closer
to understanding all that I still need to know
that proof is not experience, only how to know
and feeling is the fuel that teaches how to grow
or so it goes...
closer and closer
to who I need to be, the who I need to know
the person that I found while learning to let go
but now I can't get back to what I use to know
how does it go...
half time speech
I am a soldier of one love
I am fearless
is with my self
a perspective that must die
so that I can know perspectivelessness
so that I can be we
and feel what it means
to be one with everything
to feel it
to know it
to understand it
in a way that once there
provides no way of return...
maybe that's what scares me the most
that I will win the fight
and say good bye
if only in my mind
to a bru I really graan...
its hard to kill something you love
but it is not a death
without a birth, and so,
no longer shall I kill hate
forever now shall I birth love
use my thoughts to create love
mark my territory with love
create instead of react
love instead of fate...
there is no need to fight
the war is in our minds...
I will meet you on the battlefield
and we will reduce it to a playing field
so that our children may feel safe to wonder
as far as their minds can see
without any harm coming to them...
I have a dream
and now my dream
lives in you
judgement in D minor
people who judge
develop an ear for it
an acquired taste if you will
and if your will is acquired
then your tastes become limited
the best stories I ever read
were the conversations
happening in my mind
but my mind sometimes struggles
to put aside my personal
and most petty perspective,
so that I may scribe with sincerity,
the essence of my soul
each story is a chord
each month a riff
an evolving guitar solo
streaming vibrations of love
from the 021
I appreciate your time
the effort it takes to read a story
but aweh, nuf sed
rise up brothers
build shit that lasts
and forces the centuries to pass
before any improvement
can cast a shadow on your design
I and I
I see through you
I see through me
I present in the both of we
just seems like you and me
lets say about half the people in the country watch the news
and tonight, there’s a three minute piece,
about some prominent person
disrespecting another in public view...
over the next few hours, days or even weeks,
that message gets repeated, something like...
“did you hear about...” and so,
that piece of irrelevant nothing, masquerading as news
and originating from insincere intentions,
is transferred to the next me,
and the sonic boom reverberates through the nation,
verbally, digitally, mentally and otherwise...
why would someone do this?
why would someone,
knowing the effects of such an action,
consciously waste the precious thought energy of the collective,
and cull their brothers and sisters
into using even just five minutes of their day,
to speak and think about something
that is not a positive, motivating force
within the invisible borders?
I don’t need an answer,
I just wanted to put the thought in your head
made in cape town
all the love in me
is the same love found in you...
when you see another human
you're just seeing another version of yourself
everything from the very best to the very worst...
we are all on the same path, as a single entity
separated only by our perspectives
the body gets cut, heals in a few days
the mind gets attacked, lasts a lifetime
the soul asks why?
& come meet
inside of myself
is what I see out here
some days I feel like saving the world
other days, I just understand...
everything you need is with you, still,
try to surround yourself with mentalities
that help draw out inherit faculties in you
I was trying to share my focus
with someone who cared nothing for their own
and instead of being lead by my own will
I felt dragged along by everything that distracted her
what moves you?
distraction is a life sentence
most get bored by some thing
before they tried getting good at it
its not that the novelty wears off
its the will of your attention
that is so easily arrested
the how of the now
he took something beautiful
& turned it into nothing
she took the same nothing
& turned it into a beautiful something
short & sheek
I mean, I could live with a broken heart
but I couldn’t live without the internet
the eager seed
so i ask him
"do you see that match stick on the table?
do you think I can move it with my mind?
I'm going to show you how to do it..."
their six year old minds are bleeding
for something to believe in
"show us how you do it!"
and I asked
"but what will you do with such power?”
and another asks
"just show us..."
I tell them
"you know that I can move the match
and a tiny piece of you
believes that you too can move the match
"just show us..."
and I tease them saying
"maybe you’re not ready?"
and they all say
eager to learn the secrets of match magic
I tell them
"if I show you how to move the match today
it might be an enemy tomorrow
or a school building the next...
without the ability to control your thoughts
you will never be able to control the match
and if you can’t control your thoughts
then you will have difficulty in moving yourself"
they all pause for a second, and then one says
"are you going to show us or not?"
vibrational impact assessment
we affect & infect each other
I mean, what did you do with your thoughts yesterday?
did you try to build yourself up?
or did you use it to try to break someone down?
what you think of me, only affects you...
I was drawn to her
but at the time she didn’t feel the same
our paths had crossed many times before she had felt something even small
but even then, she didn’t really know what the feeling was
months passed and we started connecting for longer and longer
until a time came, when we couldn’t be apart...
she wasn’t the type of girl I would have normally been attracted to
but the feeling would surpass any superficial barriers
enough to carry my curiosity further, to want to know & feel more with her
I don’t think I was the type of guy she would normally go for either
but I seemed to have grown on her as the time passed
and instead of a love at first sight sort of vibration
the love grew slowly from an understanding that formed between us
almost like a respect for each other
one's a crowd
even the tiniest audience
provides its pleasure
even the audience of one
provides its measure
mind - time = timelessness
there are ideas alive today
that surpass even the minds
who fashioned them for our use
is thinking selflessly
I mean, what could I create (today)
that will not need
to be recreated (tomorrow)
seeing your self in others
explaining the neurosis to your self is hard
the formula it seems
needs to be written out
pieced back together
and then explained to sulaiman in layman
exactly how things seem to be working ceaselessly
behind the scenes
sulaiman is thinking about
had done with another bru before she evens met him
sulaiman is thinking about all the ways his wife could possibly cheat on him
he fantasizes regretfully about thoughts that have no basis in his reality
and he spends fifty percent of his thought capacity on this useless practice
kept in a loop laced with insecurity and misunderstanding of self
he is my brother and we are experiencing this one love together
any given monday
it was the first class of the day
dylan is distracted
trying his best to distract me
and the rest of the class
he challenges me
in the class, but of course
I respond with strategically sincere love
I pretend to ignore him
but he’s persistent
so I decide half way into the lesson
to teach from the table standing in the front of the class
he then, seated in his chair
starts sabelaring, quite fluently, as a taunt
an invitation, but of course I cannot get on that bus
so I offer him one of my half-time speeches
I raise my voice & my vibration
I push my entire being through my voice
and in his direction
I make him feel me
in no uncertain terms
and he does, I can feel him feel me
after my five minute speech directed at him
but still speaking to the class
I tell them
"I want yous to have everything
a jas house, a jas car, happy times, lekker vibes
I want yous to have everything your heart wants
I wish... I could give you the world...
but I can't... die woorde is al wat ek het..."
I told them that I loved them
and I meant it and they felt it...
two girls in the back started crying
when the siren sounded, dylan stormed out of the class
without waiting a second...
three periods later
our paths cross down one of the corridors
without any of his classmates
I see him seeing me see him, and he looks right at me
then he walks toward me, puts out his left clinched fist
and says "irie king"
that might not seem like much to most people
but to me, it was as worthy a victory
as great as any battle fought in our time
letter to a human
I'm slowly learning
that true love
is living your life selflessly
in service of others....
we can never go back to what was
sometimes we want things the way they use to be
the way we imagined it would be
but that's not how it works
you cannot try to orchestrate with nothing but your own wants
the universe will give you a moerse klap and you will come meet yourself on your knees, crying thinking about kak you shouldn't be thinking about...
and when you look again
its all over
none of it matters
and nobody gives a fuck...
it only bothers you
if you think about it
& you only think about it
because it bothers you
when I felt that familiar emotion
I knew I still had a long way to go...
a feeling never seems to leave you
you just stop connecting or identifying with it...
as if you have a choice in how you get to feel
just by focusing on the why of the way you want to feel
you get to be the feeling you feel to be
and in so, you start to feel not the feeling
but the feeling of the being in you
the best plan is to love
what you choose to do
join the conversation
what are we talking to each other about?
what are we feeding each other?
where do our conversations lead?
just keep swimming
nobody really knows
what they want to do
everybody tries anything
before they score a try
i c u
its easy to talk the "one love"
but living it...
speaking to your self
you’re on a stage with a microphone
and standing in front of you
are all the billions of humans on the planet
you have their full attention
you need to leave them with some thoughts, anything...
what would you tell them?
what do you tell all those people?
now there are no right or wrong answers
but another way to answer this question
is to imagine yourself having dinner
with your 90 year old self
just the two of you
and you ask her the same question
but she answers you without flinching
so... what did she say?
love tastes lekker
I have many many many aunties where I retain fridge rights,
as if its my own mother’s home, a privilege I value...
because inside these many fridges are hidden treasures
stuff like homemade butter cookies & chocolate fudge brownies, such kak...
but have you noticed, you must have noticed,
there are some aunties who’s food just tastes better than the other aunties
and there is always that one aunty who attracts hoards of second servings
the other aunties don’t come close to her basic potato salad evens, and everybody knows it,
you can taste the food has been prepared with love
that’s what keeps them coming back, its made with love...
it sounds too simple to be true, but the missing ingredient, is usually love
with army in mind & silence in hand
she became unstoppable...
the dream editor
my me has experienced moments,
feelings that I cannot put into words...
& there is something about going there
about being there, where ever there might be for you,
that most times cannot be put into words,
& because we cannot put love into words
we are gifted our lives
to live the words
we cannot put it into
love letter to a student
you are ready to love
you have the spirit in you...
the best guidance is gratitude
stay low stay humble
stay learning stay focused
everything you need is already yours
live your life selflessly
that is true love
getting to know something or someone takes patience & not time as is incorrectly thought... thought is like a current, a vibration in and of itself & the thought signal however faint, is easily amplified by not only your own intentions, but by that of other minds too, who have similar intentions to yours... together doesn’t mean perfection, blue skies and an ice cold beer after a hard days work, together just means together, like when your toe has a fungus or when your tooth has a cavity or when your liver is not working as it should, its still your body, those parts are just rotting or going through some dis-ease, but its still you, the same body... just like the humans, we are one human, and the many humans roaming the planet is just the full spectrum of human possibility, a single ray of light with a spectrum that is bursting with perspective, everything from the very best, to the very worst... we are all on the same path, as a single entity, separated only by our perspectives... its mos one love
peace and ♥
thoughts are the fundamental building blocks of our very existence
most express a universal symbol for love or peace, but what is the symbol for thought? the symbol of an idea could maybe be a glowing light bulb above a human head, but a thought, what would that look like? and how have we managed to get so far on our journey, without having something as fundamental as thought, distilled into symbol & dispersed universally?
just a thought
first you get the feeling
then you see the sign
then you feel the message
as if you’re reading blind
I don’t know her
but when she sings
I believe her
the spirit will succumb
to the will of the mind &
and the state of the body...
am I not a writer if it never gets read
or am I not a writer if it never gets felt?
the first step to recovery
is admitting refined sugar is a drug
your shortcomings as a you &
my shortcomings as a me
is our shortcomings as a we
grow your own imagination
lies are like truths, wrapped in belief
lies are not told, they are sold...
during an interval two young students come to sit beside me and ask with a stern seriousness “sir... how do you get the girls?”... I smile and tell them “one day I was inside of this girl, we had paused during sex, interrupted by a loud knock, and at that very moment I told her something that made her laugh, and when she laughed, I could feel her vagina squeeze my penis with every chuckle” they both laugh a little giggle and then I tell them “when you make her laugh, her vagina is laughing too, and if you can make her laugh all day, she might wanna hang around you all day, and that will increase your chances dramatically of getting the girl...” that little story seemed to have excited them and they both thank me as if I had given them the missing puzzle piece to their manhood... I mean, what would you tell them?
learn & give what you can
& then move along swiftly...
avoid trying to squeeze forever
out of every relationship
the student & the wiser
once upon a hill
a student asked a question and
the wiser answered with a different question
but inside of the question that he gave the student
was the answer to the question he was asking
the wiser had drawn the answer from the student’s mouth
with nothing more than a question back at the student...
everyone knows the truth
the answer lays inside of all of us
inside of every soulful atom
and what is important is not the answer
its the question that drives us
you know the question
just as I did...
what is the one love?
the answer is inside of you
and it will find you
if you want it to
the constant gardener
the young live in their imagination
until we take them out of it
and then take it out of them
and then they do it to their young
kahlil was right
I awoke from a dream that had left me with the very real emotions associated with the events in the dream. I realised fast that it was just a dream... and as the noise of familiarity ushered me back to my wakeful state, I had the realization that all I was awakening to, was another dream, my dream inside of thee dream, that feels so real... a never-ending dream of ever changing thought and form
once bitten & twice shy
but what comes after thrice?
you never need to say anything
we have forgotten how to speak without words
why would anything in a dream
need to be real to be felt?
feelings don’t care for any reality
feelings will accept fantasy as her home
the universal agent
love dissolves all pain, all perspective & all purpose into oneness
the seed knows
I am the you of me in us
seeing we for what it is in my self
that’s why you’re here...
& when you graduate from me to we
I’ll be there in the crowd
standing & applauding your intention
people take & take
until they have nothing left to gain
people lie & lie
until they have only themselves to blame
quick to find fault but slow to find love...
these are the days of some lives
if you cannot feel the love in you
why do you think that is?
where do you think it is?
where does love live?
I write for my culture
to let them know
that a rose can bloom
from a crack in some concrete
the love is fucking always
right where you are
our reactions define us
they shape and validate our perceptions of ourselves
and give others insight into our thoughts
the privileged few
it was hard
but decisiveness usually is
if not coupled with understanding...
if you are able to forgo your own needs
in pursuit of a higher purpose
then you are endowed with the power
to not only move mountains
but minds too
I got this
if I fucked your woman
is she still your wife?
& if I think your thoughts for you
is it still your life?
be (come) ing
we are all born to live undivided
where perspective is abandoned in favour of awareness
and personal truth replaced with sincere intention
at the center of becoming either love or hate
is the state of being
play your part
no more love laced with lust
no more fear forced with fire
no more humans humming in hate
give a fuck
avoid regurgitating the bias birthed by the few-folk
feel the struggle of the many-mind
and direct the attention of your will spirit-ward
the young have no sense of time
bedtime is their curse
they experience only light and dark
and inherit the time thing from us
that forever story
we are the all of us complicit in the evils and good around the planet, we shall the all of us burn and we shall the all of us be born again, forever and ever... aweh
slight of mind
judgement is a disease
carried and spread
by humans alone
sometimes to tell the true story
you need to tell the story of your lie
koppel & kyk in dalaland
my deepest condolences for your lack of perspective
but there are people with nothing, not even hope
you at least have somewhere to read these words from
life is just love on repeat &
forever is just now in slow motion
when you’re sitting around feeling bad, mad or sad
the chances are one hundred percent
that what you're thinking about
is what is making you feel that way
there’s no other nommer
the human mind is capable of limitless possibility
but with only seven subjects in one year
government schools have become a glorified
for parents while they work...
the perfect bed for distraction to lay its head on
keeping them on a metronome of time & discipline
until they are ready to be let out of the pen
why does someone still need
to schedule your information intake
words still need to be translated & understood
but feeling is shared without translation
feeling is the truest form of knowing
no sounds, no letters, no nothing...
just the subtle yet ever present vibrations
that radiates from every living thing...
words will never be enough
human analytics 101
how many hours do you spend online? do you evens know? do you evens care?…welcome to “human analytics 101” where we reveal our thinking of your thinking, with simple pie charts, infographics, percentage bar charts and other glossy visual aids. we’ll cover how focus and thought generation as resources can be held captive and how to regain control of what gets into your thought stream. “human analytics 101” is a free course that needs no textbooks or lectures, it requires only sincerity on your part to be objective about the quality and length of each and every thought that you create
the persecution of mary jane
its logistically impossible to prosecute or detain all the weed growers, sellers and smokers, but please spare a thought for the few, who serve as the example to the many
I’m searching for freedom from perspective and finding it might take everything I’m. why is it okay to use “I’m” in the beginning of a sentence but it makes less sense at the end?
something like a phenomenon
the entire internet at their fingertips
and still some find themselves
at a loss on what to search for
in which direction to lead themselves
hear ye, hear ye
people don’t want to hear the truth they’ve been lied to for so long that they’ve learnt to lean toward what they’ve been led to believe and because of the trajectory of this thinking mainstream media as an engine has curated a collection of minds that feeds off being lied to
harvesting the hype
its hard to see yourself as part of what it is
the peace that can be found in silence
lies hidden inside the endless tide of distraction
and the quintessence of its trickery
is to keep them on the edge of their seats
the crux of the magic
me sounds so selfish
while we just feels better
them sounds so childish
while us just feels better
the right thing is often hard to do
just as good things are often hard to learn
love is not something you are taught
its something you remember...
what else have we maybe forgotten
the boy & the man
one day a young boy was walking... his walk had a distinct purpose as he was on a little quest to find out about this thing called life... he saw a man sitting on the side of the road and stopped to tell him of his quest and to find out if the man could help him in any way the man smiled and said i have just come from that quest and I have met many men, young and old and the wisest of the wisest always tell me the same thing love is the manual for life
I take this now
to be my truthfully wedded wife
to love and to cherish
till death us do part
half the story
what you don’t know or feel
can be more important than what you do
sometimes we can see our mistakes
in the dreams of others
she wasn’t accustomed to honesty or sincerity in such huge doses and so resigned herself to the fact that he must have wanted something from her she couldn’t see past her own expectations and was blinded by her perspective but all he was trying to do was be human... its almost as if, she’d never met a real human before
everyday the same love happens
but all we see is the change
gavin s1 e7
gavin enjoyed how music reminded him
of the beat he failed to feel in his soul sometimes
gavin s1 e6
understanding that a murder or a rape was just the flowering of a thought
gavin began to unravel the gravity of his own thoughts
gavin s1 e5
following in the footsteps of a dream someone else had already had
gavin eventually lost pluk
gavin s1 e4
scared of dying & scared of living
gavin retreated to fantasy
gavin s1 e3
thinking about everything he thought he knew
gavin realised that he couldn’t buy into what he did’t yet know...
gavin s1 e2
one of gavin’s biggest fears
was to have been born a piel
and to have died a poes
did you know
some one some where right now is dreaming of having the life you have
it either feels like home
or it doesn’t...
its never something that you need to speak out its always something you need to feel out words get in the way sometimes but love feels the same everyday
the doorways be infinite
its not that its getting you high,
its only showing you what your body can do...
your body can also
take direct instruction
from the will of your attention...
but focus is a muscle
that needs to be exercised daily
and it is only through feeling
that we truly know...
love is a oneness
that needs to be felt to be known
and when we understand through feeling
the lights go on & love becomes visible
in every atom of the eternal somethingverse
a story of love
a few years ago I met a really nice girl... we clicked & the sex was next level, the energy transfer between us was almost effortless, even the way we argued about simple things felt familiar, as if we’d done it before, but for sure the feeling was not foreign to me, it felt like a home I remembered from a when I can’t recall...
we made a pact, we saw each other in secret mostly and we lead seemingly single lives, we were focused on our individualities, we never lived together, sleepovers of course, even weekends, but very discreetly, our connection was not common knowledge and so remained untainted by anything other that what we ourselves tainted it with... but neither of us did any tainting of any kind, we agreed to always lift each other up, or let each other go, this is true love as far as we could see...
all I cared about was seeing her flourish and flower into the beauty that she already was, it was like a secret, but a beautiful one, and we cherished it more than any tangible thing in our lives... we developed a bond that is without distance or time, we truly became one, just being ourselves
a winning formula
I expect nothing &
I always get everything I got
I take nothing for granted &
I am grateful for everything
when you’re a child
being around people feels very normal
its as if we are all drawn to each other naturally
but as we grow into adults
we become so disconnected from each other
that we practically become strangers
living right next door to each other
sitting right beside each other
sleeping right next to each other
cry the beloved vernacular
I love my culture
I love it
I graan it
I grew up marinaded in it
its in me
I am of it...
if shakespeare writes about a murderer or rapist
would you associate his day-to-day character with such vile actions?
more than likely not?
if I can be afforded the same courtesy
then I will have been satisfied into silence
some people still need to see it on paper
they can't yet feel it into existence
some who envision their empires
fail to envision its end
plus one day my taanie skiet me
a true lady, never gets caught
there was this woman I once worked with
she use to send flowers to herself at the office every week
and the card would always read "from a secret admirer"
using our reality to trick her fantasy into existence
and instead of planting seeds in her own mind
she tried planting it in ours
you can see clearly the amount of people
who exercise their bodies
the evidence is a body that is in shape
you can see clearly the amount of people
who exercise their minds
the evidence is a manner of mindfulness
mindfulness takes shape
when the spirit is at peace
what’s bothering you?
in 1976 a man known as johnny jumped from a moving van to get his cap that was blown back by the wind, the van was travelling at 260 km p/h, thankfully johnny didn’t die on impact but four days later in hospital, but by then he had already had his victory, he had gotten his cap back in one piece
we are all healing from the wounds of a fleeting perspective...
sometimes you are who you think you are, and sometimes you are not... you are caught "out of character"... as if you are acting for the better part of your life, its almost as if you're trying to be who you think you should be or maybe you're trying to be who you want to be perceived as? either way, you're trying to be more you... and every episode of your favourite series, or every repeat of your favourite track is either inspiring your soul, or quietly ushering you into distracted directions, mapping your mind to content that numbs the soul. the predominant quality of mainstream media is not designed to inspire, it is to distract, but a distraction from what?...
value your thoughtspace
brave thoughts matter
her mind was easily stripped for parts
sold to the highest distraction
nurturing a shadow of her truer self
succumbing to a life that none aspires to
and still fewer overcome...
struggling to remember
what she had been led to forget...
masala steak pies &
pepper steak gatsbies
I asked a high school girl the other day, she has both her parents, a sister and an extended family that stretches throughout the region, I asked her, do you have someone in your life that you can go to no matter what, that you trust with your life, a friend that will go to war with you? she said no, she said no in the light of her parents being alive, how can a human with both parents and a thick woven network of friends & family still have no person to totally trust and confide in... this aloneliness, this feeling of isolation is a beautiful paradox growing inside our overcrowded communities, usually feeding on the fringes of big city lights... where does she go to in times of need? who can she turn to for that feeling of being loved or touched in a non sexual way? where does she go? who can she turn to? not knowing that what she seeks lives inside of her, she waits in hope for someone or something to touch her life in ways she never knew possible… she is my sister and we are experiencing this one love together
pick your battles
she was at odds with the harsh beating she had just taken, only a few hours after she had cut the ribbon off the brand new black convertible bmw he had bought for her surprise birthday party… I mean, it was just a few blue marks in her face, and plus, he was drunk she thought, the bruises were light enough to conceal with make-up, because nothing was going to stop her from using her brand new bmw, first thing in the morning, to go buy entjies at the garage... she is my sister and we are experiencing this one love together
the ceaseless pendulum
verily her forms take their shape from my mind’s lead...
what want can I know in light of such abundance
she has him wrapped around her thighs, her pussy releases a powerful venom, squirted directly from her mentality, his meagre salary is defenceless against her every request, but he is just another pawn in her pleasure arsenal listed alphabetically in her whatsapp directory of willing tentacles, a pussy-licking army of worshipers to do her bidding… she is my sister and we are experiencing this one love together
state of the nation
CAFDA ~ Cape Town
yaasien has three kids... asiqah is 14, and willingly took part of a semi-violent porn video, with very murderous gangsters, several of them violated her at the same time and recorded all of it... the video eventually comes to the eyes of yaasien in the form of "bra, kyk net wat maak hulle saam die ding" - "the ding" was his daughter, and after crying for most of that night, he broke all the windows in the back of their home and smashed her face in the worst possible way
his wife moena, is a tik addict and has been since just after asiqah was born, she had two more kids with yaasien, moeed four and saqib one... moeed turns 5 in february and doesn’t have any formal identification... saqib's mother’s tik addiction is causing his spine to grow totally out of shape, but his first struggle was in the womb, where his mother ensured he was addicted to tik before his mouth touched her breast... a day after he was born, the withdrawals from the tik was the least of the doctors concerns... he had not been born with a naturally formed anus as a result of a severely underdeveloped colon...
where are the parents I hear the lady in the back row shouting, to you lady I ask, where were the parents of the minds behind the creation of the cape flats? the group areas acts? and all acts of ill will? we are the all of us complicit in the evils and good around the planet, we shall the all of us burn and we shall the all of us be born again, forever and ever, aweh
no returns policy
I experienced a moving feeling recently... but it wasn't like a flash of insight, it was like the slow coming to boil of a long brewing understanding, coming to fruition finally, rising to its fullness in my understanding of it
putting me out of your mind
is the best way to kill me
but like some sort of god
I will rise again in your mind
and you yourself having killed me dead
you yourself, will think me back into life
the average beer is 98% water
beer’s main ingredient is our natural heritage
south african breweries in newlands alone
pushes out an annual capacity of 10 billion litres
but it uses almost 4 litres of water for every 1 litre of beer it produces
so almost 40 billion litres of pure mountain nutrient rich PH-balanced spring water
enough water to fill steenbras dam, is harvested annually
by the south african revenue services’ bestest buddy
& every wine farm in southern africa is jumping on the kraft beer brand-wagon...
and so we must prepare for a war of who’s is what and why
but we don’t really "pay" for water, do we
we "pay" for the convenience of having it tapped into our homes
we can harvest enough water, for an entire family, for an entire lifetime
in just a single season’s rainfall... with nothing but the stretch of the mind
or you could bore into the ground
or you could desalinate some sea water
or you could harvest directly from the clouds
but what price can you put on a birth right?
and to whom is this price owed?
we’re always writing...
we write with our thoughts,
we sometimes share it through our words,
which just points back to our thoughts...
kyk vir macbeth
how does romeo explain shakespeare to juliet?
trying to reduce the infinite to mere words, is a falling short so grand, that its depths run infinitely
sounds produce belief
let us meet on this battlefield
but instead reduce it to a playing field
so that our children may feel safe to wonder
as far as their minds can see
girls in the hood
"how long have you been selling weed?" I asked "yor long yong, long, sieker since adnaan them left" she’s chatting on her phone and steering the car, not really worried about the white line. a calm fearlessness worn as a scarf throughout her daily movements. she pushes a healthy 250 grams per week on average but it can sky-rocket without warning. a wad of cash sits safely in her left breast, of which she has double the d necessary for a descent camouflage. she dates gang leaders and hardened criminals who have years behind their name and balances it with her warm and extended family. her favorite hooks are "yussis man", "what was I gonna say now", "now check here" and "don’t talk kak" as can be heard in every hour of every day. her fearlessness is what struck me most, she’s quite tough for a girl and I’m not sure in her heart she wants to be "taken care of" as it goes, but I don’t think she’ll object to it. I prod further "what do you want to do with this business?" she smiles and says "yor honestly, I just want to buy me a nice car!"
people who see nothing but blessings in their life, despite the most outrageous happenings, seem to be the happiest. most finding themselves in "situations", have foolishly tried orchestrating the changing tides, a fallacy born out of an ignorance and a carefully crafted psychology, handed down without much thought and absorbed in the same fashion.
only after the dust has settled and we have time to reflect that we feel, rather sense, the worthiness of the choices made, but even so, fucking up is the perfect synonym for learning, and the learning it seems never ends. your most valuable insight can happen while on your deathbed. is that a fuck up... or a thing of beauty?
that thing between the young and old, zulus and xhosas, english and afrikaans speaking ones, jews and muslims, rich and poor, educated and under-rated, refugee and seemingly free, that thing between, that divides, that has the ability to chisel lines in our minds and instil beliefs more solid than rock, the same sort of lines we etched into the earth to divide countries, the same lines that are invisible inside of one love
your phone... always within arm’s reach, earshot at the very least, I myself prefer email-tennis and enjoy the pause between back-hands, but to not be in the know is to not be in the now somehow or is the opposite closer to the truth?
eye and I
yes I. one love. I and I in all I see and I do. I the we and I the me. I in all the birds and trees. I for one and one for I. yes I. one love!
girls in the hood: behind the scenes
I spent the entire friday night with her and acted as her runner, she was totally cool with it because her runner which is also her boyfriend was on a side-chick-mish and all she really felt like doing was being horizontal... her phone’s beeping becomes increasingly and incessantly needy from seven’ish up until just before twelve
the customers, a handful of them anyway...
keith, gavin, chella, drogba, kelly, candice, kelly’s sister, kelly’s sister’s friend and her bestie jade... no one older than 21... these guys come with two cars and a circus full of mense to buy half-a-gee, the person in their group in whatsapp contact with my sister orders one gee, so, she sends me out with one gee, I get to the cars and can see a cash count shuffle going on, which includes fifty cent pieces, they tally up seventy rand and tell me, "okay we only want a half rather" I smile and say, "yor bra, but a half is eighty!" – changing coke bottles lying on the backseat’s floor seemed like the next logical step for them, I tell them, "wait gou, I’m gonna go get a halfie" giving them time to get their story together
thea, single, independent and ambitious, late 20’s, call centre manager, looks like she had a tough week or a poes bad day, her hair wasn’t ready to meet me, she’s buying a 50 rand bag of fairly descent outdoor, I tap the passenger window, she’s weary as she doesn’t recognize the runner, I shake the bag of weed through the window and she releases the central locking almost pavlovically – she looks like she really needs to smoke! I flirt with her, she don’t mind, and her initially car-idling haste is veered of course as I dish her some of my bestest mating behaviour, she turns off the ignition and reaches for her cigarettes without taking her eyes off the conversation – I now had an audience – but I ask her only what I need to know, under the cover of the wooing. ten minutes past, I end the conversation and exit the car swiftly. the night was just getting started...
it always excites new parents, their baby’s first steps, what if that same excitement can be felt by every human, toward every other human, as they step toward one love
could be nice
visions of love in my wants and in my dreams, feelings of you in my knowing, your thoughts though still unseen to me, and when our energies eventually collide, impossible will it seem the struggle to contain your being under the weight of your want, and the slut in you emerges victoriously, as the gentleman in me goes for a long walk
I met wayne at the same intersection, everyday, rain or shine, on my way into work, and everyday he wouldn’t ask me for money, he’d ask me for work, without fail, never, not once did he ask for cash, not once.
wayne came to cape town from the eastern cape looking for work, money, gold and gifts to take back home to his family, he thought in a few years he’d be leaving cape town with a drop top bmw, a boot full of cash and a jus pair of shades, but the reality he was finding to be much harsher than what he’d expected. the skurrel life is taxing on the soul and the body takes a good few knocks along the way.
I watched a young lady shave 10-15 years off her life just by living and sleeping on the street for only 3 years, no warm slippers to push your feet into as you drag them and your half closed eyes to your underfloor heated bathroom with heated toilet seat and double ply toilet paper, but aweh, nobody’s pointing fingers, somebody is just writing words and another person is reading them.
so I invite wayne over to my place, not to work but to come chill. I give him my address and tell him that if he can make it to my place anytime saturday morning I’d put together a cv for him, print off like a million copies and try to fire his drive... we had some beers, i made us a jus lunch, we smoked a spliff and all the while trying not to "inspire" him but to "connect" with him, I told him that if he wanted he could work in the garden every saturday for some extra cash and after about 2 months of that, a friend arranged a space for him in his furniture factory in maitland...
four months later my buddy calls me saying "kyk hieso, this bru is catching on kak" no-show monday’s, awol-friday’s and drunken master nommers for the rest of the week, but aweh, what could I say, I told my buddy to treat him fairly and obviously he had to let him go, so back to ground zero wayne goes and again is without work for another 7 months this time... its tough bra, no family to lean on, no real friends, no moral support, man alone... pretty much
he eventually shows up back at my place, saying that he fucked up and that he really needed a job... its like taking back a cheating husband, you wanna believe the nai, but you mos know – I wys him not to worry and don’t make him feel worse than he already does, I give him better options this time, instead of hand-delivering his fate to him with a number to call – this time he needed to push the stone himself – and push he did, his girlfriend was now pregnant with his second child. he lives in masiphumelele with a friend and she in langa with her mother, the kids are fucking beautiful... she doesn’t work and at the moment neither does he, but somehow it works
most nicknames are earned, others are handed down, sakkie earned his when he was just two days old, his malformed colon had curled inward as a result of his undeveloped anus, the doctors only able to reroute this deformity once he’s a little older, leaves a tiny bag hanging just outside his infant belly, a transparent reminder of his mother’s tik addiction
he's doing well, he looks like every other new born, only when you strip him down will you notice he has no anus and the bag hanging just outside his tiny belly will connect the dots for any on-looker as to why. his dad says that he just eats and eats because the programming associated with the hardware didn’t download the full update, so the messaging to the brain to stop eating is out of whack. the doctors are going to tear him a new one but until then, its a massive saving on nappies and every time he lets out a fart the little bag attached to his belly inflates and his mom immediately releases the wanting fart... his name is saqib, and we are experiencing this one love together
possessed by perspective, her dreams of possessions echoed through the ether.
possessed by one love, her internal vocabulary returned a no results found for the word "possession"
contains traces of coconut & slang
for many people in the 021 sunday tastes like koesiesters... every burb has a typical titi serving up coconut drizzled love come sabbath morning, like aunty joghra out in pelican park, her granddaughter in pink pyjamas, is standing in your typical titi’s kitchen, waiting for a freshly dipped batch to be delivered to an old lady 6 doors down, seated and standing are three neighbours but nine plastic containers, as your bowl not your presence represents your place in the queue, I’ve hardly ever seen her need to provide change, the client or container is usually armed with exact cash, there’s a small tv in the kitchen which keeps her clients occupied for the few minutes they’re wafting while waiting, one of her kids has just gotten up and making his way across the passage to what must be the toilet, he gives a very sincere but voiceless smile and wave... there is not a sign outside her home or in the street... and still her legend grows... not every one can make consistently lekker koesiesters and this particular morning I decided to pit the three top aunties in pelican park against each other... I’m on my way to the third aunty in a one kilometer radius that’s making koesiesters this morning, outside her home is a young man, who seems to have arrived directly from his saturday evening, leaning against the low fence of the aunty’s home, stuffing koesiesters into his mouth, gazing into the sunday morning distance, I approach him slowly, with a smile and hit him with "... for most mense in cape town, sunday sieker tastes like koesiesters nuh?" he chews, nods, smiles, swallows and then says "aweh, light us a entjie and then we continue this conversation... "
the koesiester sunday league represents the top flight in one of cape town’s oldest pastimes... and honours once again goes to shaheeda out in woodstock with a landslide victory over her closest rival titi yasmina out in goodwood with a whopping 2145 bakkies during this past sugar season. a total of over 14 000 koesiesters and at R2.50 each that’s about R35K for these past six months, working mostly on sunday mornings between 5 and 10 am... next season is looking wide open for newcomer joghra climbing to fifth place after a terrible start to her season, when asked if she could grab first place from shaheeda during next season’s drizzle & dip she simply replies "Insha Allah"
dala rot, just another day at the office
he intended to kill that security guard, but there was no real reason to... he takes another drag of his entjie while rolling off some toilet paper, he parks it between his lips and as he wipes his ass, thinks about the heist he was part of earlier that morning, the rush of it... he can hear the music playing in the next room, his ice cold beer waits for him on the speaker... he flushes, washes his hands while checking out a pimple on his forehead, he leans in, looks closer at it, pops it using one hand but two fingers, looking around first, he walks out the bathroom and as he picks up his beer with his entjie hand, politely asks... "naaiers, wa my fokking nivea cream... "
he is our brother, and we are experiencing this one love together
the misdirection of education
the revolution is cunning, but real revolution is where you would give your life for what you’re standing up to defend... that’s a revolution naaier, not tweeting the revolution from the sidelines and then grabbing sushi in lower main road to discuss your disgust at the life you’ve already bought into... most people paid to put petrol in their fairly nice cars to get to the uct campus, why not free petrol? where does it end? why not take your degree that you deserve for free and use it to create a company that produces products and services for free... education should be free, but for fucksakes, take a real look at what you’re paying for, at what you’re buying into... are you honestly being educated? nigger please, that’s just third party validation of your skill-set... that’s not a fucking revolution, that’s more like going around in circles
and after we kill the boer and restore all his injustices, we must travel further into the past to make sure our endeavors are not narrow-minded attempts at feeding our fickle fantasies of transgressions within reach of our grandmother’s eyes... no... we must fight a bigger fight than that, one that goes back to transgressions against all humans that have gone before us, billions upon billions of minds and heartbeats, who lay as ashes, forgotten, but only for those who see with eyes alone... if rhodes must fall, so too must the entire building and erf that is uct, because it was his money that built much of the university, and after the uct erf is flattened, you must flatten rhodes memorial, you must kill his family, the businesses, roads and clinics he built, you must kill all the books he wrote and you must kill his spirit, and when you’re done, without realising that you have killed a piece of yourself, will you feel more alive then, will your reward be just, or will you be just like him, only standing on the other side of your own mirror, looking at him, but seeing yourself... education should be free, but we should maybe reestablish what exactly education is before we light the fuse...
loves knows no justice,
justice implies a side is being taken,
and one love knows no favourites unfortunately
god does not look less favourably on the cheetah who killed the young buck to feed her cubs
show me a blueprint for the now you wish to change and I will show you mine
show me the emotion you invest into your ideal and I will show you mine
show me your love... and your revolution will cease to exist
a day in the life of the modern day ant colonies
*switchblade *ninja nommers
"I’ll only cry for someone I care for... " she added while subtracting herself from all other humans, hard at work again was one love’s cousin, selective love... tief... the niece of the infamous selective hearing... she continues "... nai but really man I can’t vriet that tief, she work so on my poes... but yor her hair do look jus ma bru... fuck... " admits zennifer... she and burnherdebt, who was fondly known as deb, decided long ago, never to walk in anyone’s shadow, that if they failed or if they succeeded, at least they’ll have lived as they believed, and no matter what they took from them, they couldn’t take away their dagga trees... because the greatest grow rooms of all, is happening on the atlantic seaboard with the cape flats hub of grassy park in close contention for second place, the current cheese hangover being experienced in the 021 is being replaced by variety... and is fast evolving into a thriving home growing haven for young entrepreneurs, as well as seasoned smokers looking for better consistency from their experience & wanting to be a part of the growing process, and of course there are many of those that just do it for the monies, but there will mos always be that bra... are you that bra? I am also that bra, cos I am mos you, and you are I, and I and I be staying away from such naaiers... there are many paths to the peach tree, but it takes just one naaier to make you in your poes
use your thoughts to create love my niggers
*school bell rings
jared: thanks teacher jacobs, I always like your stories...
tj: remember to love jared, even the everyone
jared: *peace sign
moenira: shukran teacher jacobs, you know you would make a great muslim...
tj: am I not a great human?
moenira: I suppose you are
tj: have a lekker weekend young sensai
trish: teacher jacobs why do we always want to know why?
tj: wanting to know is like walking trish, every question is a step forward... forget about the answers though, just keep asking smarter questions... does that help? ok look... basically, until you are one with love, will your want always be, but when you cross over the boundary that ends your wanting... at last have you arrived at being...
trish: thanks for being the best PT teacher ever mr jacobs...
tj: one love... enjoy your history lesson trish
most people it seems don’t really wanna be sticking around earth for too long, they ride their body, mind and spirit into the ground in a matter of decades and even more people have already given themselves an expiry year sub or consciously... not me bra, jus, I smaak to be here, I graan this jol... what a blessing it is to bear witness to the now, to be able to feel all the stuff that a human can feel, its kak that you only get one life, but I think its jus that you also only get one love
I fantasize about leading the charge of an entire army
with nothing but pen in hand
toward certain death
but before I do...
I will love
I will abandon fear
tear its garment from my mind
do this for my self
for the ones who will still come
for the ones that have already
to free my self from anything outside of love
to pay my debt for the life gifted to me
I must love
shoulder to shoulder
I grew up in a mom-fearing home and only when I become a giant boy did I meet the girl behind my mom, and the boy behind my dad... I wish for all young humans, to have encouragement and inspiration as regularly as breakfast and dinner and to be showered with loving intention, all the beats of your heart
1989 – PILOT: s1 e1: sara, protector of ojila, daughter of kiel & oni
deep in the south indian ocean. 2021
with homes in every province in most countries around the world and privy to a transport network few humans know exist, their new-age technology pales in comparison only to the mastery of their telepathic and kinetic abilities... their opulent lifestyle surpasses the superficiality of mere brands and as each new-born enters into their world, a planet is gifted to them, ownership transferred by the authority of the gift giver’s will alone... the real estate game has long since moved off the face of earth into the furthest reaches of our milky way
the families never fraternize with the general population, ever, and steer clear of any main stream anything, they are not off the grid as it were, they are beyond the reach of the grid... this is not a social event, this is a family affair and their opulence has afforded them a view of the planet that leaves no room for day time distractions of any kind... there is much to conquer
chaperons have a lineage treasured and valued as highly as any member of the line. Sara is an exquisite human being, she speaks hundreds of languages fluently, including signing, which she used often as a child with her siblings... she is skilled across vast philosophies and numerous disciplines... a chaperon is chosen and gifted as the right hand to every living member of the entire family, it is a life-long bond, a protector of equal caliber, ready to die for the longevity of the line
Ojila, is the eighth daughter of Kiel, a six year gap exists between a shaper and line child, an ancient birth rhythm is kept in sync by chaperon families all over the world, there are multiple chaperons to choose from for any one blood child birthed. Sara is the only chaperon to ever be chosen at five years of age because of her undeniable brilliance in all manner of adaptation...
Poghi is chaperon to Kiel’s wife Oni, she is also Sara’s mom and can outlast anything thrown at her. while growing up Sara’s mom would intercept her thoughts midstream and then say out calmly, "... sara, stop messing with your thoughts... " – it scared her that her mom could see inside her head like that, she remembered being excited at the prospect of being able to do such things to other people one day...
while a few million humans on earth collectively mourn the death of a super star, Sara and Ojila prepare to leave for the south of the planet and then onto a submarine hike of the trenches close to saint helena... one of their probes had recently discovered a new cavity just below the crust, closer to the old south end, that leads to a water filled well of unearthly beauty, unlike anything they’d both ever seen before, pure and perfect drinking water almost as old as the earth herself, this would be their second visit but first excavation... their excitement was in sync
as a young girl, she fantasized about not having enough video material with which to create a moving throwback of her meteoric rise to fame, when that day would inevitably arrive... it was thoughts like these, that sent her mind racing
very much so
I was always fascinated by wet dreams growing up, the ability for my body to ejaculate with thought alone, powerful stuff right there, pointing the way to our super human powers to affect the physical... with just a thought
please distract me
if his pacing wasn’t an obvious indication, his tone, even just the look on his face made clear the hand to ear combat he was currently engaged in, and on ending the call, flinging the phone toward the heavens, he releases an inner eruption of a three second long "... fuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!!!!"
leave for your senses
"I need to take some leave... " she reluctantly reminds him, they were in the same earning bracket just a year ago but now he was her manager "I might need the following monday off too" she adds, and all the while thinking about how she managed to land herself in a job that requires her to ask permission to live her life... "you can’t take off the monday too, jenny already put in leave for that day and we need someone on standby cindy" he answers while continuing to type and face his computer screen... she rolls her eyes without him catching her "that’s fine, I need those other days though please" she says in a subtle plead of the voice, he looks up "if its quiet on monday, you can leave at twelve" he tells her, affirming his domain of power. "why’t the poes must I come in for three fucking hours, when we both know its gonna be dead on monday and this poes still want me to drag my gat to work... what a poes!" she thought to herself as she smiles to him saying "thanks so much keith, that really means a lot" as he smiles back with forced sincerity
straddling back to her desk, before sitting down her collegue leans up and asks "did he give you the monday off?" she shakes her head and sits down, keisha smiles and helps to steer her attention "don’t worry about him, did you hear back from that other company yet?" – "not yet, but I really want that job you know, it’ll gimme the flexibility I need to get my own thing off the ground you know... but my exit strategy is already in gear sister" as they mimic high fives from across each other "... there must be a better way to live sister... " she softly remarks, tucking back into her computer screen, physically present but light years away...
these are the days of some lives
consumption : creation
consumption could lead to inspiration which could lead to creation, but consumption to creation is a ratio that few have in balance or care to mind... fruit takes a long time to produce, and is eaten in just a few minutes, sometimes a few seconds, and just so an entire lifetime could be shaped for the purpose of just a single second, a moment, in a future wanting to be called now
many years later
questioning his authenticity, she was instantly cured by his confidence, and the lifetime her mother had invested into her catholic indoctrination had all come undone, with nothing more than the blood packed head of his circumcised member and that confidence of his, or was it her weak mind that inflated her perception of him, either way... he himself was a test not of her conviction, but of her mother’s perspectivelessness, to love her unconditionally, withstanding love’s unlikely unions...
an impossible hurdle for most in the quest for one love is perspectivelessness, a long forgotten art-form practiced now only by a few cats... when we dress love in religious context, forever there will be a side to choose, religion’s trickery masking it’s greatest feat... division – the arch enemy of one love, the brother of distraction, the godfather of tribes
for a while I worked for this iranian guy, running on strictly five senses... plus now I come to work, I pass him in the middle of the restaurant, just us two, I tell him with my bestest english accent "good morning sharifi!" he just carries on walking past, I thought he must have been preoccupied, but now I put my stuff down, I apron up and walk toward the outside to start setting up, I pass him in the middle of the restaurant again, I tell him "good morning sharifi", the nai skiet me "...I heard you the first time..."
globally you have a 91% chance of falling-in-love, getting married to or fucking another human in a 50km radius of where you find yourself. down here in the 021, the odds drop considerably to a dismal 86% chance per 10 km radius... do you really love her or him? did you sell yourself short of a fuller human experience? resist the urge of becoming just another statistic, rather try something exciting like cutting your gatsby in six next time, its just easier to handle
settle for love
shout out to all the peeps that will never know the internet or ever read anything online their entire existence and still manage to have a superior human experience... you are the envy of all 9-to-5-ers everywhere
impressinor, new words and kak
[scene: muinzenburg beach, surfer’s corner, high noon, great weather, good surf, the beach is poes full, three friends, parked in a new’ish suv]
"... the best way to wake from any sleep, is out of your own, gently maybe? but out of your own body’s rhythm is the best, I skut, I don’t graan mense that wake you up so wild wild wild... "
"but aweh, judge poes gevriet, you mos also always get so technical... so then onto the subject of impressions or being a prisoner to them, or both? introducing an impressinor, fixed in a trance like life of permy wanting to impress the ouens, so much so that all the kings ouens and all the kings mense went blind... I can mos also fucking make up words... . tsak!"
"first impressions impress... repeated impressions pave... inbred impressions last... or something like that?"
"yay first impressions last for a second sometimes naier... for an impression to last foreverinty would require the changing of the hands of time
to overlook the perfection of that first impression, that you sieker think is sooo kwai, and you sieker jus if you think that I’m gonna live my whole life by a little sentence – says peter"
"that’s how you always wanna get out of a moerse kak praat session you nai – says rory"
"but can you see, it work befok – says poes"
"your hair look kak with that mentality"
"nai the ouens don’t mean to swear but try to engage the brain atleastens man yor"
"its like my bru blade-of-grass say, we already in their heads, now you must come check, what is the ouens koppeling while they not looking still, a self extracting executable, locked in a verse, sitting in your head, waiting to be triggered by a bomb of hook, as simple as AWEH MY BRU! – love recognizing herself"
"why must we brag? why must we wear a jus suit tailor made pleat nommer before this mense take you kop-toe, aweh its kwai and stuff, but its mos not essential, not really"
"nai you right bra, help your brother rather with the school fees bra or even better, take the lighties out of school and teach them well and let them lead the way"
"bonus points for helping your brother without getting caught"
"you then wys"
"but aweh, nobody smaak to play that game mos"
"is that cuppy loaded YO!!!!? "
"plus now she skiet me! HEY!"
"bra, I’m like, just KAK cool and calm... .I’m just like, but with a MOERSE pause first – hey – I say it in small caps bra! she’s sieker thinking to herself: oh my poes, how the poes can anybody be so fucking sexy"
"but when she asked me for a light, then I knew: STICKERTJIE!"
"my bru she asked you for a vark lighter, how’t the jus does that make a sticker?"
"she’s a fucking stickertjie, you can mos see"
"what can I see?"
"yay, you just being difficult, the thing is a stickertjie"
"yor now she’s soema ‘the thing’ why must you be so rude"
"yay your poes gwala my! she will still become wys of THE OUENS, you mos know how THE OUENS dala, you mos know how THE OUENS did dala the NOMMER!!!"
"yay hou jou bek you talking through your naat again, pass the vark spliff you nai!!!
"how’s tiema them?"
"that mense’s house burnt down bra!"
15 minutes away, kassam
he spots ryan standing on the edge of the grassy pavement, waving gangster signs in the air to an imaginary giant opponent, irshad slows down, the car glides to a halt, ryan opens the passenger door and greets irshad with...
"why you listening to adverts? where’s the aux rather"
"there on the side, just feel there"
"aweh, got it... hopa!... we lines bra, we already kak late"
ryan pumps up the volume to forty five, the dopest hip-hop beat plays canvas to the kakest let-down lyrics ever... feeling for his lighter he asks
"did you bring that cuppy?
"aweh here" feeling for it under the steering wheel and handing him a glass pipe, half smoked "there’s still a bietjie in there, keish it properly, don’t waste, that’s grade naaier"
"easy bra... I can mos smell"
"is she coming?"
"aweh, keisha said she’s coming with kelly... you in love with this thing nuh?"
"are you jus, I graan her aweh, but not still heavy days bra, that’s all"
"yay, don’t talk your poes... you soema making trips to durbanville without asking her for petrol money, that’s heavy days bra!"
"its fokkol, I was togies going that way"
"ja right naaier... "
"keish that thing man, you got time to talk kak and rack another one from that bietjie in that stukkie paper there in the cubby, got that from adiel last night"
"yor bra... how’s adiel?"
"balling bra, that nai got him a monster drop top merc, looks poes mad bra, but only a two-seater, you mos know, just room for one more... "
"are you wys?"
they both give a road-facing smile and after a few seconds the comfortable silence is broken...
"you got entjies on you?"
prince charming boytjie
so she said to him "boytjie, if you think that I’m gonna give it up for someone" as she looks him up and down with her index eye "that look like you!!! then you make you kak late, I nogals don’t operate with losers... oh my word" as she turns to her friend seeking unison... her friend stamps the letter just delivered "... ja look how you look... go away, you boring... " gavin just smiles and offers her a simple flower from behind his back, made of three two hundred rand notes, origami style, she smiles, the friend smirks... and girly asks him now with a different tone and body language "... did you make that?" [translation: do you have more of those specific flowers in stock boytjie] ... he just nods and smiles... boytjie understood his deficit in the player’s arena early during his school years, but the idea that cash can koppel pussy stuck and grew, I mean origami cash flowers, let me tell you, the kinnes graaaaaaan it, especially when boytjie skiets them "you can keep that one... ."
and so... while gavin’s legend grows in the burbs, lot of girlies across the planet are permy on the skurrel, for their own prince charming boytjie...
the beautiful south
I love all humans. I’ve felt that feeling since a very young age and as I grew up, I realised many of the humans around me didn’t share the same sentiment. I was forced to practice my love in secret...
as a child I use to let the street children into our home, I used a whole loaf of bread, all my mom’s cheese, tomato, lettuce, mayo, s&p, sliced in triangles and packaged in paper towels. my mom asked me "what happened to all the cheese" I was like "I don’t know, I did take a piece but not all... " it was seldom more than a talking to, harsh price to pay to feed some seriously hungry mouths...
when I married this trend had escalated to allowing vagrants to use my home as a pit stop, a shower, shave, and a hot meal with a take-away and whatever else I could help them with. one day one of the guys I was helping had not had a hot shower in so long, he used all the hot water in the geyser, soaking up every last hot drop, the bathroom wreaked of his scent and that’s how she found out. she was like "did somebody take a shower here today?" I was getting sloppy, not cleaning up my tracks like I use to. I couldn’t worm my way out of this one, she was on to me. I told her "yes, he’s a friend I’m trying to help, he’s just going through a bad patch" she says "but where does he live, why does he need to shower here?" quite a reasonable question I thought and I was like "he’s homeless" she was like "what do you mean homeless?" I said "he’s a vagrant living on the streets, he just needs a hand up" she was like "I don’t like it"...after that, the showering thing had come to an end. I mean, I could respect that...
I try to see all humans in a 1 minute high speed documentary, I see them being born and then chronological snapshots of their lives leading up to the point of me encountering said human. I’ve seen the good they’ve done and although most vagrants are lost, they are here with us. being lost on the street and being lost with a positive bank balance is still lost. what exactly is an ideal human meant to look like anyway... and an ideal world? what does that look like? to me its all the same beautiful mess, the same beautiful truth and together we make up, what it is...
brothers in arms
pang joined the 26's when he was about 16... his naked body bares the testament to his journey. when he left the number, they cut out the numbered tatoo from his chest. he’s been married a few times, has 5 kids from several woman and is a builder by trade. sometimes we still connect to play some fifa, with a joint and some snacks. its a pretty chilled environment, with kids running around and vibrant conversations within earshot. I asked a friend the other day "would you take on another man’s son and love him as your own?" his answer was "no", for most men this is really hard but for pang this is not easy, its natural. his love far outweighs his most evil encounters. a rare breed of human, able to foster care and love to any human, irrespective, and for all his shortcomings, this single trait makes him a giant, among the best of humans
menta and kaylee
loyal kaylee, first time to-be offender, finds herself sexually isolated as her husband suffering from cancer, has lost all manner of mojo. after years of deliberation she musters the courage to dip her toe in the sea of infidelity. she cautiously selects a suitor, arranges a meet-up and then on the last minute she backs out, feeling a bit paranoid she tells the suitor that her husband is coming home early. the suitor is married too, he understandingly accepts her answer and leaves. she regrets almost immediately having let him go knowing that she is the reason he left, having summoned him there on urgent business, business that could well have taken the better half of a minute given her current critical situation. kaylee shared her story with her close friend menta and after listening to 10 minutes of superfluous detail, menta turns to her, looks her up and down and says "gurl... as hy vir my sê... let’s go for a drive... is my penti al kla uit getrek al... "
prick your friends wisely
did you ever wonder where rich people go to prison? I mean if I just draw on some very crude statistics we see that in pollsmoor 91% of all inmates come from a maximum combined household income of just R6000, how is our fortified constitutionally sound judical system (judical there translates to preferentially judgerag) failing so many of our lower income offenders? a government advocate once told me that the state would be willing to let a "tax-paying" citizen free relative to the charge, this is an actual consideration! such a system is surely not sustainable but such a system is already in motion, and all motions have rhythm, and all rhythms have beats, starts and stops, the rhythm is gonna get you naaier
love leaves a mark
did you know an army that will kill on command, can be bought for a kus and a button on the cape flats? a bru was wysing me he got offered a playstation for R70 the other day, the tik koppe were having an everything-must-go clearance sale and kyk hieso that mense is negotiable on that kroon still, muklik they’ll take just R50 evens, but that PSP must go, jy wiet mos... is the tik kop any worse that any of us though? not a fok... some mense are causing more damage just by choosing to think the thoughts they think everyday, they don’t care how their thoughts validate and perpetuate the perceptive and physical reality of the collective, they’d rather wys you to hou jou bek, to put it louder, to pour it stronger, to roll it faster, to cut it finer, to fuck them harder. I just wanna send a special shout to all the victims wallowing in self-pity, I feel for you, but you’re on your own while we help out the 100 000 or so infant babies born with HIV, now think about the 200 000 or so men and woman who came together to hand a death sentence to so many innocent humans, including themselves... sexual healing mos
when people kill people, then you know something isn’t irie somewhere, like a red light or an alarm bell should be going off but that mechanism is clearly fucked. why did all the indigenous peoples of all the continents need to be wiped out? resources ultimately, that’s pretty much the long and the short of it however many years you might care to debate it some more, that and a healthy does of hate, I always think to myself, when I see an impoverished light-skinned person of age in south africa: there’s an example of someone who didn’t make the most of their time while they were "in power"... but having any measure of power is secondary to the capacity of your mind to be able to wield it, irrespective of race, class or any other categorisation you care to administer
an 021 love story s1 e1 - somebody lit a candle
spooned in his arms and after almost eight minutes of silence, he whispers the words that she was needing to hear from him... "... you smaak to koppel feelings?"... he could tell by her kiss that she was bets
an 021 love story s1 e2 - whole vark day mah bru
"I missed you, nai like really, I really missed you" he woos "you just hornsies again and now you wanna come be all lovey-dovey, get off me... " she jokes "... see, you must always come with that negative vibes, can’t you just go with it? huh? I’m soema not gonna share my chocolate with you" he threatens "I got my own chocolate charlie brown... " she mocks trying to reach for it in her bed side thingy "you mean you want a stukkie of my chocolate" he taunts as he waves her chocolate bar in front of his nose "yay! give it back, that’s mine... " she demands "see, you must always come with that neggies vibrations, can’t you just go with it huh?" he smiles as he leans in to kiss her, she turns her face and he finds her neck... but after seconds she concedes that the chocolate has become a now-now snack, whispering "... is the front door locked?"
an 021 love story s1 e3 - do I look fat in this jeans? no baby your hol still look lekker
"just take this chips away from me" she pleads after finishing almost the whole bakkie of mexican chilli "... you pretty much finished that by yourself" he jokes "don’t talk kak" she warns putting more chips in her mouth "just fucking finish it man" he says "I can’t... I can’t... I really can’t" she mumbles, putting another few chips into her mouth "... i’m on a fucking diet" she warns cleaning her salty hands with the sides of the wrapper of the chocolate she’s about to murder, and once she’s been fed, she’s gonna want her dose of cuddles that morphs into his fingertips on her bareback, writing her illegible love letters with the softest of touches, lulling her to sleep... she graan that kak!
an 021 love story s1 e4 - the younger brother
just a month ago her hair was being used as reins as she whispered "don’t stop... " into bruce’s pillow, and then, the ouens come here she’s shouting "I do... " into the glint of a diamond being held out on lee’s bended knee... but an urgent call from his stomach reminded bruce of three pieces of chicken in the microwave, plus there was still coke in the fridge also... as he tears into that first succulent leftover his stomach sends a message to his brain, that screams out "don’t stop... " - substance has long since been replaced by various flavours of fleeting on fast forward, its then lekker
the sound of words
real value is hard to find... most of the information you consume is gossip, he-say she-say they-say they-do sorta vibes. what real information came by your way today? not something repurposed, regurgitated, reconditioned, redesigned or repackaged, new information, an insight even, not into a demographic or a niche, but an insight into it all
the lying king
lions are poes mooi, have you ever seen one? up close? fucking poes mooi, any african lion alive today is part of a long line of points, honing their lineage for almost 1 million years, the lion has more respect and is more at one than more than 5 billion single human beings, the lion is singled out because it is a commonly used to depict strength. strength is a beautiful trait, which all lions possess, what desirable trait will the overwhelming greatness of humans come to represent?
the hayflick limit
about 50 000 years ago, how did anyone know how old they were? how did they keep "time" as we have been bred to know it... it was mostly just sunrise and sunset, sure most had man-made time-keeping systems but they didn’t have information systems of records that we can use to backtrack into time to accurately gauge how the average life-expectancy has truly been affected over the course of time. the default settings for humans are quite remarkable, given the right amount of food, light, water and exercise, humans can grow and live to 500 years and more, far-fetched yes, but only to the 100-year perspective. the 100-year perspective cannot see too far into the future and too far into the past, they see mostly everything that revolves around the time of their lifespan, within the allocated 100 years they’ve been led to believe is possible in one of these human bodies. visit distant planets, go 100 000 years into the future, travel back in time, live a thousand lives and then come back and tell me that humans living to be 500 years old is impossible, show me a human unwilling to entertain such notions and I will show you a human in fear of his own beliefs being shattered by the noise of limitless possibility
most people write for themselves, one or a few hundred thousand humans, there is never a guarantee that your words will be met by all that are living, we do it for the love of the few in the hope that the many will, at the very least, remember you and your story... and give a fuck
run from the cure
I sold cannabis for a while, most of the people I sold to were friends, family and everyone else was separated by only one degree from either the friend or the family member. It was a network based on trust. I got to meet so many people, I use to park off sometimes for longer than I should have at some people’s homes and of course, the women, I encountered and hooked-up with some very open-minded women along the way, it came with the territory and I didn’t mind... one day an old man called me, he introduced himself as fuad and continued to tell me his story. he was 65, a staunch muslim and had been diagnosed with cancer. on receiving the news, he embarked on a mission to prolong his life. he never smoked a day in his life. he read, researched, phoned, emailed and wanted me to organise him a bulk of cannabis that he could use to extract the essential ingredient and use the oils to treat his cancer. he died last year. there is a law that says this man is a criminal for pursuing a way to prolong his life. the law is unwavering, it doesn’t consider the exception; it can only enforce the rule. such a system is prone to health issues, as is any system that cannot adapt fast enough to supply the needs of its parts...
nothing will deaden the common sense of justice, nothing will separate humans so much from the general feeling of his time, as separation by class. when a human cannot sympathize with every kind of human then the state lacks oneness. the general feeling of the people is unexpressed because it has no common organ of expression and you obtain in laws not the living movement of the many but the dead traditions of the few
in loving memeory of bertrand
words without music
love from the 021, this is msp FM 87.5... shout out to dark wing duck... the soundtrack to my life is stillness. a life where a vagrant sits calmly and enjoys a piece of dry bread against a graffiti plastered wall as the morning traffic zooms past him at 5 kilometers per hour. a life where another teenager falls pregnant without planning while wanting parents spend thousands trying to. a life where the cure for aids was part of a long term corporate growth strategy. a life where distraction is the major cause of destruction. a life were dispair and loneliness are a way of life for most. pretty bleak no?... the soundtrack to my life is blue skies, back-dropped by a spectacular forest mountain range, stretching toward a sandy beach and into the roaring waves of an inviting ocean, calling you to return to the water, to return to the earth, to none but all forever. ho$ dota
simple is bless
I know a man who has never left his country. inside these invisible borders he has learnt all the lessons life had chosen for him to bear witness to. if I showed you his heat signature on an interactive map, watched as a time-lapsed video over 70 years, played within the space of 5 minutes, you’ll notice that he hardly left the city within a 50km radius of where he lived. none the less, he lives a good life by any standard and is content with himself and tolerant of others. love is his fuel and his reward. distance traveled has little impact, on the broad variation in strokes love paints each unique living thing with. no matter how far you’ve come or still have to go, the love is always... right where you are
some humans, including myself, provide context, associating themselves with a particular event, experience or person in the hope that this will add to peoples view of them... for example, listening to a speaker give a technical lesson, during one of his closing chapters, he buffers a concluding point with "... and on my year long trip to india... " now harmless as this might seem, the knowledge about his trip to india, even as an analogy, was overkill, for the insight that never followed
I moved out of cape town about 4 years ago and have been living on earth ever since...I love cape town...I am proudly south, african and human... but no more. I must abandon this pride, I must forgo this self to attain total creaminess... and so... I remove myself from the nationality given to me in thought and accepted by all who see me practice my choice. I must forgo my culture, my class, my creed and my covenant with death... I must forgo my self... ... ..but why? its then so lekker!
27 years to freedom
robben island had been granted world heritage status in 2076 and what had started as an experiment had morphed into a city. the island had become a self sustaining hive of energy, complete with everything any modern city could need, rethought on a revolutionary scale. it had grown 5 times its size in the space of 2 years. any human on the planet had been welcomed to live on the island for as short or as long a period as desired, the only fundamental requirement being community (or collaboration) in favour of cash (or commerce). there were boats, aircraft, submarines, cars, trucks and bicycles, sea and land farms, technology hubs, a global bluetooth network, a space center, everything a modern human family could need, and then.... twenty five years into the life of the island a young man, by re-purposing his family's entire wealth, single single-handedly enabled the large scale retrofitting of this self sustaining system across the planet.... it spread like wild fire, the fusion of mentality. a year after the wild fire, camps bay was reduced to a commune and overnight the face of cape town was transformed to become the biggest known free tourist destination, an alien concept to many humans.... but most who visited stayed. the island had by now become a well organised and well intentioned addiction.
ramblings of a dirty old man
after the mass induced suicide, the entire species of human was wiped out within the space of 216000 heartbeats, across the entire planet, with a single instruction, that overrode all rational thought, it was the most amazing thing to witness... there was a clause built into the instruction, for any infant younger than 78 solar revolutions, remained living and somehow able to foster their own development... these infants had in turn been instructed, almost auto-magically and had had their genes updated(compensated) to the equivalent of what we know to be superman, without the red eye thingy... when they reached puberty, the would feel the urge to levitate, and before adulthood, transform the playful art of levitation to full atmospheric flight, some mad newmans would deep dive the oceans of the planet, bringing back ancient relics of boats, that sunk, that many people had used to cramp inside of, to get from one part of the planet to the other... ."that’s so vintage... " clara says... ."are we ready to go?" they all acknowledge, the three sit down calmly, each assuming a flat, cross legged, straight back position, with arms rested palm forward on the knees... .they each close their eyes, they extend their arms with finger tips barely touching, not a sound, a soft light begins to form in the center of the three of them, they themselves begin to light up, after about 60 heartbeats, they disappear...
try writing without quoting a book, movie, song, event, experience. try writing without using anything other than totally new and original creations from the depths of your imagination and see if you can. its harder than you think. new character names, new traits, new landscapes, new horizons, new perspectives, everything new. nothing rehashed. its entirety, an original masterpiece born out of trying
"shhhh" she silently mouthed, with eyes made visibly larger, you’re gonna wake him up is what her expression said. my dad’s leather wallet was always fat, overflowing with receipts, bank notes and a special pocket full of coins. we only took silver coins if there were more than a few of the same, you need to take without leaving a noticeable dent, borrowing from nature, without disrupting the entire ecosystem
I couldn’t tell if it was an altercation or animated conversation, but when they all burst with laughter, I knew...
the be(a)st in us
her two front teeth were rammed north into her gums "... you mos a poes to hit a kin" she said in a dialect she rarely uses, and calmly walked into their bedroom, while he calmly lit a cigarette. she emerged as if in slow motion from behind the kitchen’s wall with a 9mm, and with a smile so subtle exercised her verdict thrice in his crotch... then, she calmly lit a cigarette
"baby come here, let me fux your pussy man, don’t be so... " she smirked at his comment while fixing her hair "can’t you be more romantic yor, just something, anything, you kak rude you know"... "but you mos like it baybles" he says as she faintly smiles... "we gonna be late" she says "hai yor baybles every time we-gonna-be-late! we-gonna-be-late!... just a blowjob, quick, I’ll cum quick I promise" he begs "that’s what you always say ... just come... and I’m timing you" she says "naaaai if you gonna time me then rather leave it, its not gonna be lekker for me" he replies "yay just come man" she says as she approaches him while pinning her hair up "you togies want to" he says, without making eye contact she says "hou jou bek ... you kak boring, just cum quickly"
I had a dream... that I was on a stage with a microphone, facing the 7 odd billion humans of earth, and I clearly remember thinking in my dream that a picture of this breath-taking view could possibly become thee most shared photo in the world... simply tagged #us
and then... I did my nails, and then we did breakie, and then we met brad, OMG can he be any hotter? and then... we like so had lunch at hot-spot-what-not but the wha-wha was sooo dry, we were like tweet tweet tweet and everyone were like lols and stuffs, and we were like #nailedit... and then... stace suggested we have to have that thing we want to need so bad, and we were all like... hell yeah!
everybody love everybody...
do you need more than that? do you need a fuller sentence? a 500 page-scrolling bestseller? media hype? to put a face and a name to it? 1 trillion followers? all the pies and your brother’s wife? ... everybody love everybody, as simple as it sounds, is the solution to most of our human stuff
we’d been friends since I was 5 years old. we’d been in the same class and school for 12 years. he was hands down, the funniest guy ever, a potent raw humour, unmatched and never fully tapped. I watched as the love and then the laughter leave his being. I watched him plummet from courage to fear in a slow frame by frame movie, each second lasting a lifetime, and then slowed down even further as to seem as if time is standing still. I sit there and look at the slice of change to the now that is visible to me, and I feel as if I want to slide the ether right and regress his life to a point where he had all his hair and it was all messed up, full of grass, cheeks red of laughter and stomach muscles no longer able to cope with the none-stop-giggle-laugh he’d been having for the past almost hour now... the sun is burning his 12 year old skin, there is nothing right now that is bothering his mind. his face paints the picture to his thoughts, it is visible also just in his eyes. his life is the perfect answer to my childhood question on seeing the passed-out man on the pavement down the road from where we stayed, wanting to know "how does a person get like that... evens?" ~ sometimes we go and chill on the beach, he’ll get in the car with a smile, fist pump me and then, almost immediately, break down in tears... heavy days bra... his thoughts now paints the look of regret, anger and hate on his face... he is my brother, and we are experiencing this one love together
I felt a heavy energy of the tainted kind, disrupting the vibrations, love present fully but muffled by the will of the ill-intentioned youth, claiming right to lament the hurt of his brethren, not his fight neither his war, yet he flies a flag with forced, almost fake passion, that he easily discards at the site of the money train. he is my brother and we are experiencing this one love together
"I klop... " she said, he smiled, he knew he had that shit locked down, but he couldn’t be sure where the double blank was laying and a milo wasn’t possible either, they needed this tell game... ... he moers down his blank 4, forcing the game into a tell and shows the rest of his dumz in the same motion "I tell 8 naaiers... chak this boom is soema uff" he shouts out "wag jy... " says fiekie pointing to his hand "I also tell 8 bra... " "JUS" he replies "show me naaier" ... "there you can mos see" he argues... "vragtiewa this nai count 8, are you then jus to count 8?" he exclaims and immediately says "naaaaaaaai but wait naaier, how can we then both count 8?" everybody checks their dumz, in hand and played, after a blazing-fast triple check the conclusion is as it stands, they both count 8... now... this is very interesting because a tell game is worth 2 points, but rarely if ever shared as a 1 point each sort of vibe and no where can be found a rule that says anything supporting or refuting this 1 point each system... everybody takes out their phones and google is jou naam brother.... after minutes of searching... nothing... there is no rule to govern such a situation in the entirety of the game of dominoes... the game is either won or not and points are never split, maybe if you got like 7 doubles or some kak like that it could prompt a reshuffle of the dumz but a replay of a game, very seldom... in all my whiskies I have never come across such a situation the score is 4 – 3... jakals being 1 point behind forced the game into a tell, but little did he anticipate this scenario and never before had it occurred... but jakals was never gonna versak on a potential win, he would rather vrek before he versak’d and plustins he couldn’t stand le tief... he’s pushing for a replay of their last game and they’re pushing for the logical and fair however unable to verify 1 point each rule system which would essentially give the boom to them, a poes trap in jakals’ eyes... but with no one being able to confirm or deny the existence of such a rule it came down to the 4 players to decide how the wind should blow in favour of either 1. a replay or 2. a split point rule which would push jakals’ drol back into his hol... .but after some 4 way shouting jakals says rudely "have the vark boom man... druk it in your naat also... " "naaaaaaai, why must you be so" says le tief... ."hou jou bek still you... " says jakals eyeing her "naaier I will slut you in your poes" she says and picks up a knife lying on the small table to the left just above her head "I’ll cut off your vark trill and druk it in your bek... take me for a poes naaier" while waving the knife in the direction of his penis... "you kak lucky your berk is here"... le berk unmoved by this fleeting statement sits one way and calmly takes another sip of his beer, lifting and looking at his glass while savoring his mouthful... she immediately stands up and leans in to take a stab at jakals, and just just misses his hand... he hardly flinched, calmly turning away from her but still looking toward his friend, he makes his way toward his car keys on the table and says... "bra... your kin bra, please!"... ... and that was the end of that. there’s some tension now yes, but they’ll probz be playing another boom before the end of the weekend
let down your guard
like asavela, the car guard, each grocery bag he packs into the boot of the mercedes is a reminder to him of his meal for the night, made up of donations from shoppers like the one he’s helping now, he puts out both hands, one hand touching the wrist of the hand extended, a sign of humility. he pockets R1.50 more than what he just had and thinks back to all the yummy high end organic stuff he saw in those peoples bags... and then immediately thought about his 3 year old daughter and immediately puts on a smile as he ushers the next shopper into their parking bay...
like blessing, the car guard, each grocery bag an opportunity to pilfer something that would easily be missed, but this thought does not even cross his mind, a set of snow white teeth is worn like a tatoo on his face, he eats better than can be seen by his outward appearance and averages about 200 rand for the day on a 7 day fixed none stop 24/7 almost 365 rotation system, he has no kids, alone, 400 kilometers from the nearest person that would welcome him joyfully into their home and heart, 400 kilometers from the nearest place of unconditional love...
400 fucking ma se poes kilometers... and its mos not "your fault" or "my fault" but I’m just saying, look how far that bra must go for love... are you wys?
night and dark
the load-shedding activity in cape town instantly creates 4 way stops all over the city, little pockets of patience training, scheduled 2 hour lessons in tolerance for an entire city
when you’re not born into money, the mentality that goes along with managing it is not flicked on in your economic dna settings. mentality is what builds character, shapes humans, cities and countries
sometimes i sit and imagine beautiful things with my eyes closed, but just then, the electricity drops and i’m left sitting in the dark, it makes imagining so much more easier and not a cell in my body responds to the shedding of load by anything or anyone
thinking about the many south africans who call our afrikaaner fore-fathers and brothers racist, with the blame equally shifted toward english speaking so-called white people, who cannot take an ounce of responsibility for the zero load-shedding record during the rule of our afrikaaner step-fathers, kak as their gedagtes were, those brothers of ours could run shit like well oiled infrastructure should be, you must take your hats off for them, after you discard your inbred hate for them
we can continue for a bible’s worth of paragraphables playing the blame shift shuffle dance, but that’s a very boring way to spend 1000 years, and people need to learn to love on to new advances in energy creation, we can learn to create make-shift power harnessing and storage devices with what you can find everywhere, and people with cash can go anywhere, even online to invest in sustainable ways of energy creation, the sun, and the wind moers in cape town
cape town’s main electricity producing hub will lay in ruin as a false sun god, after we pump all our energy-earned cash into distributed energy systems, almost like a magic trick, a very practical and efficient magic trick... tap into the sun’s power, tap into the wind’s power, tap into your mind’s power, and let every adversity steer you closer to a more self sustaining home. your mind is your kingdom where the lights can never go off, come energy refrain or sun shine
some of us find freedom in the ugly truth, while others remain chained by the beautiful lie of centralised power distribution. the light will come back on, but i think our energy will be better spent on trying to bring back the love
tonight in the darkness, my aunt tells me that only when she got to high school did she realise she was being oppressed. her mentality and character shielded, lovingly shaped by the time of the realisation of this thought... she just laughed it off saying "I’m always the last to find out about these things!"
politics was never spoken about at school, and if at home, not ever in her company. it sounded boring to her anyway, but there were little comments or subtle reminders like "don’t go there" and "stay away from... " stuff like that. she’s just a young beautiful woman, alive and loving life, she understood the psychology of oppression and did not subscribe to it, but also never having been out of the country, assumed it logical at the time that this oppression must be worldwide. the oppressor nomenclature was championed by those it benefited, and heard mostly, but seldom spoken by the oppressed she assumed... but after she finished college, became a teacher and raised a family, she started to unravel the gravity of the mentality...
she lives a great love, keeps pretty much to herself, but when you do encounter her, you encounter pure love, and feel almost lifted when you leave her presence. you’d totally pass her in the street, feel nothing and not even give her a first glance... but let her give you her full focus... her eyes will pierce your soul with love
I litter sometimes. sometimes I litter my mind, but today though I decided not to litter, and that tiny drop of a decision will go on to form part of the invisible litre of effort, that forms part of the endless ocean of change
one day there were two friends, one love and numberless. growing up they were like this-and-that, always together... but after numberless’ umpteenth birthday, he started to show signs of wanting to count. one love saw this but thought nothing of it, as he always does. but then one day one love asked numberless to go with him to the far place to make the happy things, but numberless was getting tired of doing happy things in the far place, he wanted more stuff in the there place, his this in the my that, he soon started to tally grass and bread... and when one love asked him "what are you keeping score of?" numberless, not even looking him in the love says "give me all your one love"
"yes hi, do you guys still sell that real shit?" – "yes ma’am would you like that on a bread or rice base?" – "what do you think chrissie?" without chrissie even acknowledging the existence of the chair she’s on, hilda klaps bruce with her instruction-question combo power move "ag make it ma bread... do yous have brown rice?" – "yes ma’am, we’ve got that fresh shit yo" – "oh you guys are so candid" she said "especially the educated ones like yourself... I think just get chrissie a full EB and some OJ on the fresh drip" – "will that be all ma’am?" "no actually wait... chrissie, do you want to order a side? chrissie!?!?" *smiles "ag never mind, we’ll order the sides another time when we come, thanks bruce... oh can you bring me some water please, yes a jug... and some lemon... thanks bruce"
there was a down syndrome kid living a few houses down from where I grew up, the whole road was aware of who "bollie" was, his speech was incoherent but if you made enough effort it was easy to communicate with him. he is quite the character though, has an unnatural fear for most household pets and on trying to entice any female, he would whip out his dick and just start openly masturbating, he’s way of saying "you’re hot" – one day his mom locked him in the toilet for a brief 2 minutes because he burnt all the staff’s wages on pay day, the thing is, he knew what he was doing but got a real kick out of seeing his mom flip out... after his toilet confinement he emerged calm and seemingly remorseful and retreated to the outside to think about what he had just done, as the family sat down to their friday take-away dinner, he unleashes a high pressure water pipe all over the kitchen, cupboards, table, floor, everywhere, spraying them right in their faces, with the happiest laugh on his face, its all a game to him, not a hint of vengeance can be sought on his face – knowing what he’s just done, he drops the pipe and makes a dash for down the road with a satisfied laugh. he’ll have to come home soon but he needs to let them cool down or maybe dry down... his mom is an inspiring woman full of awehness, she has the patience of a million miles and no doubt brandon’s life helped carve out a big part of her personality. every human life is an amazing gift, like a custom tool designed to shape the lives sharing in the experience. we are all legends. bollie is a legend
jerome wasn't built in a day
he has the look of a man living on the street. his rent a mere 50 rand for the week, a wooden three by two sitting on the property of a woman who needs the extra two hundred per month. the details of his fall from positive bank balance is strewn over the course of 12 short years, owning many properties and businesses, looking great, smelling fresh and feeling on top of the world, a series of choices seemingly in his control leads him down the path to homelessness and then contemplative solitude. I ask him about his family, some live as close as the next suburb. he has grown children and loving parents. he says one day during labarang, that he saw his dad drive past the streets he walks everyday, jerome made as if he never saw. his dad paused the car, took a quick glance and then drove away slowly. jerome says "I think he just wanted to see me with his own eyes... " he chops and saws wood as part of the many odd jobs he takes on daily and is quite well built, when stripped down to his nakedness you will be surprised to find the physique of a swimmer, complete with 6 pack and killer thighs, he covers his body 24/7 with a one piece always-dirty overall. he wears dreads and making eye contact with him, will set off a smile on his face every time. he watches me living my life and I’m watching him living his. neither is good nor bad, neither is righter nor wronger. we are placed exactly where we need to be. the control most think there is in choice is the same lie believed by those who negate the fact that cells divide without your permission... he leaves me with "be grateful. you never need to say anything, we have forgotten how to speak without words"
2.4 kilometres in under 10 minutes reduces a squad of nearly 2000 hopefuls right down to a few hundred. the prelim before the test begins for all firefighters. clyde has been to trials for the past 5 years and makes it every year. his goal is to become a fire fighter. its all he can speak of and all he wants to do for the rest of his life. he gets moved around during the course of 5 years to all the fire stations in the 021 and eventually lands in roeland street... things are looking up
on one of his off days, he decides to take a walk to the local rasta to get some bag weed, they sell it in five rand sections, wrapped in newspaper the size of about a swollen thumb... on his way home the luck of the draw gets him searched by a patrol van and he’s taken in for "possession" of mostly stalks and seed. another sad day for our democracy. he spends the day in a holding cell and released the same night on one hundred rand bail. when he gets out, he feels like nothing but a warm shower and a hot plate. his weed craving has totally left him
the real sting comes when his record is pulled as part of the fire department’s due diligence. already having served 5 years with this charge, and after fighting numerous fires, working late shifts and giving a 150%, he is asked not to return to work for his contravention of the law, worth a meagre five rand, picked up after nearly five years in service as a seasonal fire fighter
the only way to clear his name is through a presidential pardon. our president, at his soul’s discretion can absolve this hard working fire fighter and restore him to his fire fighting glory. the thing that bugged me most is that less than half of our fire fighters will pass a blood test containing no trace of thc
he has made peace with it though. his life has moved on, but he will never be able to fight another fire in the 021... and sitting opposite him on the see-saw of our legal system is a tiny little five rand section of bag weed. I seldom enjoy the thought of the few serving as the example to the many. while the many can grow, sell and smoke, the few serve as the reminder that there is a european law governing our african souls, one we take to heart, teach to our children and use as justification to enforce our will on others
free range cream
"put this at the gate" pointing to the clean glass bottle with exact money inside. I remember the look of that rand coin especially. the bottle outside, an indication that you wanted milk and in case you missed the sound of the truck as it chugged down your road. the sight of the coinage would be enough to prompt the delivery driver into action. on the rare occasion of my mom popping a two rand note in there, I would find the exact change, stacked neatly next to a bottle of the freshest creamiest foil-sealed milk. how cool is that? milk so rich that a dense layer of cream would form in the neck of the bottle, the simple foil cap was reused with effortless effectiveness and my super efficient grandmother would scoop out that settled cream every morning and freeze it, only to melt in your mouth the very next sunday - shot ma
awakening from a dream to know her time of feeling the knowledge of being. through cervix into bondage spawns another shoot on the tree of humanity. shrivelling before her time to fully flower, she witnesses the rest of the branch flourish, seemingly stuck in her human form. she is my sister and we are experiencing this one love together
her meal courses through my body. her nutritional options shaped by design. her choices clear, and still, she is persecuted for being. today I sat still while she took as much blood as she needed from me. not even mine to give, I sat as still as the earth does when we take from her. the mosquito is my sister, from another other, and we are experiencing this one love together
3 guys walk into a one love
he got in close to observatory. the guy occupying the front seat of the quantum closest to the window didn’t want to be pushed into the middle front seat, with no back rest, he quickly jumps out and ushers the new passenger in. a few robots down the unthinkable happens. the middle man unpacks a kit-kat with 4 strips, without saying a word, he cracks off one finger and hands it to the driver, cracks another strip and hands it to the guy to his left, and then immediately munches down on the two strips left over. he pretty much killed it in that one gulp. I wasn’t sure if he was hungry or really smaaking for some chocolate but his consideration during his breaking of the bread routine still had me captivated. none of those three knew each other. the driver after swallowing his last chew gives him a "shup bra" without taking his eyes off the road. the guy to his left with a still chocolatey mouth reaffirms the driver’s sentiment with an "aweh bra". he gets off at claremont and that was that. the driver never said a word to the other passenger all the way to wynberg. chocolate was shared and love was returned. the end
so lets say about half the people in mzansi watch the news, and lets say tonight there’s a three minute piece about some prominent political person slapping another in parliament. over the next few hours, days or even weeks, that message gets repeated, ending in something like... "did you hear about... " and so the story, which originated from an insincere intention, is transferred to the next me, and the sonic boom reverberates through the nation, verbally, digitally, mentally and otherwise.
the pace that you choose is the choice you confuse with the mould that you use... and like a lack of discipline produces effects that seem to creep up on you like a leave in the night, newly formed and seemingly not there the previous morning, you will wake up one day and find yourself loved... and so so happy. I’m soema excited for you!
visions of a backspeen
last night I was standing in front of the 7 odd billion humans, looking at the reflection of my self, and then in the clearest human tone, an ant sitting below me said "and me, do you not see me as part of your reflection?" I put my hand over the mic, knelt down and said "am I talking to you or are we having a conversation in my head?" he slapped me with "your humility has not led you back to the mountain human, because you refuse to dismiss advances in human technology... but you forget human, that your technology is limited to human knowledge, just a few short books in the last few thousand years, that entire contribution a scribble on a post-it note, under a pile of infinite and timeless works"
courage might not be the perfect antonym to fear, but let us for a moment say that she is...
the young man who entered the blazing building and rescued the unconscious woman, must have been extremely brave! bravery then seems to be irrational, as going toward fire is not rational behaviour, based on this, it’s pretty safe to say that a suitable candidate for an antonym of phobia could easily be courage. if this be the case, why has courage not littered our language with more references to lean on? like the hundreds of suffixed phobias? why are there so little adequate variations to describe courage, as there are for fear?
a few over privileged, seemingly bored students at the university of the 021, have been misguided ever so slightly. when did the statue start bothering who? a false sense of entitlement seems to have had her way... love might not have created or erected that statue, but it was definitely not love that tore it down, that attention seeking behaviour is the opposite of courage
see no phobia
all of three minutes was spent trying to trace the origins of the word xenophobia, the thinking just under two hundred years old it seems, then wrapped in a sub domain of fear, ready to be spread. how can a phobia exist without something to displace the meaning into? how else could the idea spread? xenophobia is like a barometer of the general sense of mind. as ignorance is massaged out, self respecting education takes root. as the amount of minds susceptible to the idea of xenophobia diminishes, the idea fades, and more people begin to see no phobia... the perfect breeding ground for one love
5000 pages ago
many moons ago, a spring in the ancient mountain of the sleeping giant could be found bleeding fresh water. the fringes of the sea dressed in green grass, the only source of nutrition necessary for sustenance of human life. the spring flows still and the green grass still lines the shores... today that place is known as cape town, and the ancient mountain stands still, as she did then, a facial feature of the earth beneath our everyday feet. her ancient beauty will remain... long after we are gone
she's the one
she lost her virginity at 14, by 18 she had slept with more than 80 different partners, mostly male, by 22 she was already over the trance scene, by 26 she had pushed so much variations of synthesised chemicals and poisonous alcohol through her system that her skin’s natural glow had faded and left huge bags under her eyes, at age 30 she was still partying hard, trying to relive those early 20’s late night and full weekend extravaganzas, by 34 she was starting to slow down, but only starting, 20 years of bad habits had conditioned her mind and body, after 20 years of all of that, you don’t just meet a good man, settle down and live happily ever after, but that is secretly what she longs for now, no more bright lights and party drugs, cheap thrills and heartache, what she longs for now is peace, within the loving arms of someone who can still see the human in her, the beautiful soul beneath all the experience love had concocted for her... she is my sister, and we are experiencing this one love together
dedicated to a young lady who died inside the body of a living soul
I love when the local girls speak slang with that unmistakable 021 accent. I love how the profanities roll off their tongues, extorting their meaning’s full essence just by flavouring their opinions with it. all dialects are beautiful, everything is love
the most ancient of humans on earth are khoi. genetics trace their routes back millennia. around 50 000 years ago, various groups migrated out of southern africa, laying the genetic foundation for most of the modern world
cape town’s history is just another story unfolding. wikipedia cite "the arrival of the europeans" as the start of the history of the cape. the historical population tally somehow magically starts keeping check since 1658, with a total count of only 360 people
in the early 1500s a legendary khoi chief led a retaliation at the battle of salt river, the details vary. the khoi are non-violent, they do not attack at the site of ships, but those aristocratic portuguese must have had the fear of fuck in their eyes at the site of the khoi advancing, armed only with their fearlessness, enraged by those whose lives were taken so cheaply
the cultural genocide of the khoi did not start with our portuguese, dutch, german or english brothers, but at the hands of our bantu brethren, who have as much legitimate claim to the cape as the european cowboys... smudging the very existence of khoi heritage with every law written. the very same khoi who’s DNA is imprinted on their soul’s fate
in the late 1700s another legendary khoi chief rebelled against the dispossession of traditional lands by an ordinance of the colonists, he was sent to robben island, escaped twice and was later shipped off to australia where he died... and the rest as they say, is still being written
take no more than you need
share what you have
and learn to love
district 6 has happened in most parts of the planet over the course of forever. forced displacement by a larger animal, bigger gun or kak gedagte. I love imagining how that scar on the edge of cape town’s cbd, masqueraded as vacant land, would have morphed if it had been left to flourish. yasis man! my mind sees the epicentre of planetary eclectic
life lessons dressed in a love bearing the resemblance of pain... mother nature’s creatively cruel fashion sense
rolling the dice onto the open tar, he releases the pair with a flick of his wrist, for effect, but unfortunately in vain this time, a young lady is squat sitting on the edge of an imaginary ring, she knows her man can take this next hand, everyone is focused on the fall of the dice. without the dice, it would seem as if they were all standing in a circle, just staring at the blank tar, their body dance is the only clue to a passer by, that a game of double dice is in session, a swiftness in both opponents, a dance of sorts, a spurring on of luck with a push of the pelvis and purposeful and passionate point to the sky. his gaze now fixed on the eyes of his opposite and not the dice, because he would rather get the news of his loss straight from the eyes of his other me, than look down on the changing fortunes of love
we only get what we give
translation level: impossibleness
if you can read these words and see through my mind, then you can use your mind to see through your own, how in your imagination all the different minds on earth, must be thinking so many different things and ways, that a law to govern such a varied network seems narrow and minded by those that have no good intentions of willing the want of one love. if god is everywhere, then she is also in the object of your judgement
fearful minds spreading hate like a trend, the game of copying the next want, binge diets of photo credible occurrences, of shared experiences, acclimatizing to a mould that cares not for the shape of one love... like the girl who took a plane, to take a pic, to tick a box, to show that she too, can evens...
you have to something everyday. we all have to something everyday, breathe for example, its a something, or maybe you eat everyday, that’s quite common no? doing something everyday can be crudely broken down into musts and cans. you must breathe, eat, sleep but you don’t need to write everyday, its not necessary. its a can at best. based on this, what other musts have been set out for me by design. if I am human, what must I do?
the best answer to that question has to be love...
easy for ever
it shocked me how easily the truth had revealed herself once I saw the other side of what I was thinking to be wrong, learnings locked into leaps of faith from rocks of inbred thoughts, how many days must I still depart from my self to learn my new now? the story never ends mos...
you’re not going to like everything you read here, just like you don’t like everything about your self, but when you love, like becomes a thing of the past
the final hour
reducing the work of any great artist or band to just their lyrics, stripping out any duplicate chorus or verse, each song written as a paragraph, you should be able to get through their entire life’s work, reading normally, from start to finish, in just over a few hours... more or less
bits & pieces
eyeing me from above her reading specs, voiceless words were spoken with a subtle gesture of the brow "are you jus... are you then jus?!" was the crust of the look, but an entire newspaper’s worth of opinion lay hidden in her silence, as she returns to her glossy mag with the swift of a page turn
without context and timing, imaginations roam free
kak short mini series: s1: e1 - e8
his clothes wore the look of a man that was either well traveled on earth, or into the farthest reaches of his mind
I had just quickly jumped off to take a piss, and when I looked again the entire train of thought had carried on without me, was I getting older or slow enough to see how fast that train was going?
"righto righto righto, who smaak to get on their poes" was her mother’s words as she relayed to the detective exactly what happened... "then he hit me through my face, his ring broke my nose and after that I couldn’t get up so he kicked me... but he didn’t know I had the gun with me, I shot him in his cock but that didn’t kill him, I shot him in both his legs and then I lit a cigarette, smoked it finished, watched the blood drain from his body and when he kupped om, I called you guys... that’s all I know detective" as she lights another cigarette "I should have killed the nai long time ago... " – "thanks mrs kruger... ... ... . if you’ll wait right her, this young lady will take you to get cleaned up... ... ... ... I’m really sorry about your daughter... "
she used travelling as an escape, but mostly from judgement
in loving memory of "goudtjie american" – he was shot 46 times by 6 gunmen at close range, they were instructed not to shoot at his head out of respect for his mother, a brutal code of conduct
quick to find fault but slow to find love – these are the days of some lives
greatness without feeling or taking responsibility, is dik brasse with one love
leave some pointers for the ones coming behind us, enjoy the view and don’t forget to be nice to the everyone
cape flats snap shot: our dark side in day light
daylight audacity, like something out of a reality... we’re about to make a calm right turn at a four way intersection, an undercover police vehicle pulls into our side, 45 degrees into the turn, the driver speaks to denny through the passenger window, its 6:14pm in the evening, light as day, his car is blocking the paused vehicle to his right, who is now unable to turn left... the aggression of the driver and his passenger could be felt through the car... the two occupants look nothing like police officers, they have the look of death in their eyes... both in full recognizable view, I will never forget their faces... denny’s two year old daughter is strapped into the front seat, I’m at the back and was about to be dropped off after a quick trip to the shop. the driver in the white chevrolet shouts out "bly jy hier... do you live here, waar bly jy.. bly jy hier?" and revs and edges his car into our way, barely touching us, his intent was clear... denny floors the car, we start flying down the avenue, he pauses at the approaching four way in his mind and races over it without stopping, all the while picking up speed, he gets to the top of the avenue and is about 1km from his home, he makes a sharp right and then a hard left... home straight, these guys are not fucking around, they come about his right side but are forced to duck behind us because of the narrow road and on-coming cars... we fly over another fourway, this time, forcing the driver on the left to brake really hard... I unstrap mia from the front seat and bring her toward me, she thinks its a game, these fukkers have no value for human life, all we care about is getting her out of harm’s way... we’re fast approaching denny’s drive-way, they slow down after we’d pulled in and stop about ten houses down... he pulls the car all the way down into the driveway and then without looking and before getting out says "take mia inside... " and heads toward the gate, he calls over the neighbour’s son and stands in front of their house, looking down into the street at the car that was just chasing us, the car is paused, after a few second talk with some locals, a third passenger gets into the back and their car slowly drives toward denny’s house, by that time, denny and three locals, one on a bmx, where hovered in front of his driveway and the gate closed behind him... the car rolls up slowly, stops in front of the house and the middle of the road, the passenger calmly gets out and points at denny "virdag is jou fokking lucky dag brudder... " the driver paints the portrait of death with his stare, the mystery guest in the backseat is the son of an important someone, he, knowing denny from "the area", eases their minds with his rank and reassures him that denny is not a threat and in fact a "friendly" – before taking off the driver looks at denny and says slowy "jy’s fokking lucky... " and slowly, very very slowly pulls away...
now... who tries to hijack you in broad daylight, and then after chasing you down and forcing you into your driveway like a rabbit, stops dead in the middle of the road to tell you that you’re lucky – let me tell you something people, these guys are the real deal, soldiers, the true essence of what it means to be a "dala rot", their energy is real, their intentions clear and their courage unmatched... this sort of fearlessness is not rare on the cape flats... and after inquiring we had discovered that they were after the car, a silver vw polo, we escaped to tell the tale, but tonight, someone somewhere in cape town, driving a polo specifically, will feel their energy, just as we did, and those ones might not be as lucky... .
I really admire their fearlessness, when the driver spoke, I had no doubt that what was happening was the real deal, clearly ge’drug and more than likely ge’british... today’s little escapade helped me to move closer to an understanding of a question that has been in mind for years now – "if it’s so easy to infect people with fear... how can we infect people with love?" – something inside tells me, that those same two brothers, channeled toward the ends of one love, would strike love into the fear of any man’s heart...
they are my brothers, and we are experiencing this one love together
cape flats snap shot: 30 something generation of grannies
her mother pimped her out when she was about thirteen, carving a permanent hole through her soul... by 23 she had had four children from different fathers, she’s unable to know for sure who the various father’s are, such was the onslaught her body was exposed to... her eldest daughter is expecting, but what exactly can she expect?
when I was kid, I remember she and her brother coming to our gate for food, she would never speak, but always smile, a beautiful young girl almost ready to be over powered by the will of ill-intentions. I never skimped on their requests either, some people like to get leftover foods, nah bra, I used the best food we ate to feed them, and with a non-existent father and mother who’s mind is not much focused on her children’s well-being let alone nutritional intake, her body never stood a chance and her mind followed suit...
she passed me in the road yesterday, I barely recognized her, her face painted the picture of the visuals being replayed in her mind... could you possibly imagine a kaleidoscope of her thoughts as a visual on your computer screen? can you imagine what her mentality looks like? I doubt she’ll see 50... and no one will care
she is my sister and we are experiencing this one love together
twists and turns
"unfortunately no one can be told what the mayderix is... and unfortunately yous can’t also come to the mayderix evens, cause the cover charge is too much... "
but the machines did make them pearly late, because the one known as weyo, did go get credit from his card, putting his gat diep in the skuld, to rise to the occasion... to show, that he to, can evens
this is our story
engraved in the genetic record is the versioning data of all life
how can I know that I am evolving if my genes have no record of where or what I have come from?
as genetic instructions are upgraded to adequately reflect their updates, genes become aware of these changes and appends this data to its seemingly unlimited storage capacity, while retaining all upgrade information of any previous incarnations...
that’s a lot of data
laugh love learn, repeat
no one likes meeting at 3:47pm, most people say "lets make it 4", I’ve never ever met anyone in my entire life that was willing to meet at 3:47pm, the exact time has no special significance to me other than its complete randomness, and after only a few short years on earth, I decided that whomever didn’t find this meeting time a complete weirdity was going to be my bestest friend – after I told her that story, we’ve never been apart...
she has all the answers
hey guys and welcome
remember in our last sesh, we spoke about being judgerag, the art of having your mentality held captive in a state of judgement, the actual word judgemental paints a very colourful picture of how your thoughts are being hijacked, in an effort to partake of a concept, experienced by no other living organism known to man... judgement is like a programmable virus, that seems to have made its way out of god’s mind and into our fickle minds... for those that don’t know, there are some humans that know what god is thinking, they form part of the billions, who like romeo and juliet, can fully understand the mind of their creator shakespeare, from whence they came
your brain is designed to have reflex like responses to how it has been programmed, if any question doesn’t immediately invoke a response and causes you to pause even for a second, the concept itself is not clearly defined in your mind, but more importantly, it fails the polarity test, it’s opposite is missing from your memory... but why?
the following acid test has only two questions and should take the average human three seconds to answer each question respectively. good luck!
1. what is the opposite of hot, love and happy?
2. what is the opposite of business, judgement and self pity?
question 1 should produce instant results based on your programming
question 2 should have most thinking for a few seconds, unsure, searching google for answers, asking a friend, but the knowledge of its counterpart is not instantly accessible to your programmable mind... why is that?
well that’s it for today kids, don’t forget to be nice to the everybody and I’ll see you all again next time
cape flats snap shot: dotas vannie st michaels innie grassy park in
"AWEH!!!!!... AHOY!!!!!... .LOOOOIT!!!" he flags me down with arms and whistle about eight light poles back... I turn around, its been a while since I’d seen marvin... .
if you saw him in the street, you periphery wouldn’t flag him for a full focused view, your perspective dismisses him out of hand, reassuring yourself silently... "we all have choices in life" not knowing or trying to understand how he had been shaped to the point where he is today... society shapes minds and is adept at numbing, sometimes killing the human spirit, if not equipped with a mentality that is strong enough to love...
his shoes, pants and t-shirt barely holds the worn out threads together, he seems to wear clothes now only as a means to shade from the sun or cold or to cover up his parts... he had walked about 35km from where he was staying to work in the garden of an old lady that he usually frequents, one of many on his pray roll... but on arrival she sweetly told him "not today lovey... I don’t have money now" and that was that... he hadn’t eaten since the night before but was not really worried about food as he started to take his walk back home, not the most inviting space on earth... he had been wearing a very strange cap, that had concealed the first few shaves of his hair, I asked him, what happened "she did turn off the electricity when I did want to cut my hair, sy’s deurie-nai, but o’right... "
he never knew his parents. he has a bed, not a room, with his aunt in hanover park... his only contribution is a twenty toward electricity every friday, which he manages to skurrel quite easily. he’s addicted to heroine, known locally as unga, which costs him about thirty bucks for one revolution of the earth, he’s been to prison for "huis in braak" and has contemplated suicide most months for the last 15 years, he recalls once, sitting at princess vlei for the whole day, with a noose around his neck, sitting under the tree he had specifically chosen to use to snap his head from his spine... but even in his drugged out state, he argues with himself... telling himself "jy’s weak... nai bra, jy’s fokken weak!... " eventually removing the noose, he wipes his tears and starts the 25km walk back to where the only bed he had available to him was waiting... he learnt to sleep wherever he could feel safe enough to close his eyes without any harm coming to him, because we live on an earth, where a human is not allowed to put their head down anywhere and just close their eyes to rejuvenate the body and mind, sleep is no longer valued as a sacred thing... those days are long gone
from that day onward the suicide attempts had come to a complete halt but the drug addiction remained... armed only with a grade five qualification, his most credible employment was as a panel beating assistant to an old man in grassy park who had seen him grow up, giving him a hand up marvin swooped it up with open arms, it lasted a few months, he had stolen nothing more than a few tools, and was subsequently let go... back into the wild
his mind is quite strong though, despite not having a strong human influence present throughout his life to guide him, he has had life herself as his teacher, a fact he is learning to be grateful for with every passing heartbeat, one day while walking, thinking about an old lady who gave him clothes and some food one day, and being in the area in which she lived, he nabs a cute little pot plant on his walk, with colourful pink petals to be used as a gift to the aunty that gave so generously, such is his want to give back, his intention supported by a means he is most accustomed to... his intention be nothing but love though
this year he turns 26... we always manage to find time to talk when our paths do cross, he never asks for sympathy but sometimes you’ll hear his mantra "... if you can help me with a two rand, I would appreciate it... " but he warns me, "... but you must ask with a smile bra... you must mos work for it" smiling at me with no front teeth, penniless, but with enough love still to lead him back home to peace of mind...
if you can’t get by with a little, you’re pretty fucked, because that’s all the love you’ll ever need
cape flats snap shot: granti kalanti
her brown skin was a map of softly wrinkled lines, each contour a lesson learnt... grant gave her a moerse lot of headaches growing up, and was responsible for most of her grey hair, but he loved his taanie...
one day he took a taxi to meet her at work because he really needed new takkies... he left extra early to see mo, his getuie, on his way to squeeze in a quick bong for the day ahead... arriving super early at his mom’s place of work, the minutes crawled toward the hour, even more so now that he was in his poes geroek, and plus he was feeling slightly paranoid too, as his thoughts dragged him from distraction to distraction...
sitting on the edge of the opposite pavement and after waiting for almost 35 minutes outside mother’s building, he decided to do a little recce, he seldom comes to his mom’s work and even if he did he always waited outside... but he needed new takkies and the shops closed at 5 and plus they didn’t have a car still... he needed new takkies, it was urgent, the weekend was coming and he needed to look "fresh as fuck" for the kinnes mos...
feeling bored he asks the security at the front desk if he could use the toilet, which was all the way on the other side of the building, which occupied almost an entire block in salt river’s industrial area... the security guard, having been watching him all this time felt his pain and decided to let him through... "molo bhuti, do you know the way?"... . to which he smiled "aweh... "
as he makes his way down the steel stairs and onto the ground floor landing, full of various types of machinery and prefabricated offices, he slowly makes his way to the other side of the factoryfloor, observing everyone and everything in his path, but being quite inconspicuous in his appearance and approach, no one paid him any mind, most of the staff were hard at focus, working on their whatevers...
his mom had worked there for the 16 years of his life, plus another 12 more, and being stoned he was thinking this and other rather deep kak... he hears a violent lashing of the tongue in the nearby distance, thinking to himself "that guy sounds pissed... " curious, he leans his walk toward the office, as he slowly passes he sees his mother standing in some guy’s office, speaking down to and scolding at her with the vilest adjectives, as he hammers her with protocol, process and politics, sprinkled with a healthy dose of cunt... grant stands in full view of this motherfucker, looking him in the eye, hoping that he would put his head up and look his way... but he didn’t, he was too lost in his own hate... grant despised the way he spoke to his mother, it ate at his core, it enraged him... his mother was reduced to tears, and the cunt swiftly asked her to get back to work and close the door behind her, with tears still streaming from her eyes...
at that very same moment, while stirring her tea in the kitchen, their mother smiled out loud to herself, thinking about the two of them, and how they were the most precious things in the world to her... from that day on grant’s behaviour toward his mother changed, his mother could never really understand what had suddenly happened to all his anger, he had somehow found a new channel in which to displace his energies, his anger was transmuted to purpose, his mother’s happiness was the only thing keeping him anchored... although she attributes the changes in her son to her prayers being answered...
it was on that day, replaying that scene in his mother’s poes boss’ office that he decided to change the world that his mother lived in... he knew that changing the whole world was as easy as changing the thoughts in his own head, his mother was living proof – a small part of grant wanted to kill his mom’s boss, not in a figurative sort of way, he contemplated killing him for realsies... but aweh
in loving memory of infatuation
his words had pierced her perspective
flattening her expectations
leaving her lying in a pool of her own thoughts
where self pity consumed her completely
left to die inside of a dream that once was...
Q & A
if you could live anywhere on the planet
then why the fuck don't you?